CharlieHorse
September 12th, 2012, 01:56 AM
So hey, I'm a 15 year old dude, and for the past year or so, I have been obsessing over this girl who doesn't know me. I wanted her so bad (I don't know why), but I knew we wouldn't be good together, so I kept trying to get over her.
Suddenly, about a couple months ago, I was able to finally keep her out of my mind, and I did get over her, just out of the blue. Strange because I felt that nothing that i tried worked.
Earlier today I looked at facebook and noticed a beautiful picture of her and her new BF kissing in the low light atmosphere with Christmas lights in a photoshoot, and looking at it made me feel jealous at first, but just for a second, and then it made me feel happy. She is with a great guy, and it made me smile.
And so now I feel slightly happy, and content with life in general. For the first time in years I lay awake in my bed feeling that I have sort of succeeded, and I don't want anything. Some guy could offer me a million dollars, and I'd be like 'no thanks, I'm ok'. I feel as if I've chased this girl in my mind, for so long, trying to get her to be with someone, whether it be me or not, and now that she is, I don't know what to do with my time, I don't know what I want. I almost feel like I don't care in an upbeat way towards things now, since I just ignored all my HW due tomorrow, but I don't feel stressed at all.
If anyone has ever watched the Princess Bride, with Inigo Montoya (or whatever his name is), after he avenges his father, he feels different and doesn't know what to do with the rest of his life (since he put basically all his time and energy into it for a good chunk of his life)... I sorta feel like that... it feels so weird...
Any thoughts?
Suddenly, about a couple months ago, I was able to finally keep her out of my mind, and I did get over her, just out of the blue. Strange because I felt that nothing that i tried worked.
Earlier today I looked at facebook and noticed a beautiful picture of her and her new BF kissing in the low light atmosphere with Christmas lights in a photoshoot, and looking at it made me feel jealous at first, but just for a second, and then it made me feel happy. She is with a great guy, and it made me smile.
And so now I feel slightly happy, and content with life in general. For the first time in years I lay awake in my bed feeling that I have sort of succeeded, and I don't want anything. Some guy could offer me a million dollars, and I'd be like 'no thanks, I'm ok'. I feel as if I've chased this girl in my mind, for so long, trying to get her to be with someone, whether it be me or not, and now that she is, I don't know what to do with my time, I don't know what I want. I almost feel like I don't care in an upbeat way towards things now, since I just ignored all my HW due tomorrow, but I don't feel stressed at all.
If anyone has ever watched the Princess Bride, with Inigo Montoya (or whatever his name is), after he avenges his father, he feels different and doesn't know what to do with the rest of his life (since he put basically all his time and energy into it for a good chunk of his life)... I sorta feel like that... it feels so weird...
Any thoughts?