xXoblivionXx
September 11th, 2012, 03:54 PM
I'm stupid, I'm a complete idiot. I can't continue living like this. I thought this year would be different. It's not, I don't think I will be able to make it through the next 4 years. I was so close to crying during class, I got in trouble in class for reading during some stupid presentation. That's when I lost it. I didn't have a blade with me. I'm bringing one tomorrow, that is if I am alive. I'm so lost, I'm scared. What's worse is no one cares about me, no one gives a fuck. Right now, I have nothing to loose. Besides for you guys on VT, I have no one. You guys may miss me or may (probably) won't. I had a panic attack in class because I couldn't cut. I found a staple and used that but it wasn't that effective. (sorry if any of this is triggering) I need to finnish myself off. I can't keep going on like this. I have manipulate everything that happens to me into some thing worse than it really is. If I told people who I really am, what is wrong with me, they would think I am a crazy, delusional, over dramatic kid. When I say that I am lost it's true. I have no clue what's going on. I can't save myself, not anymore, but you can save yourselves... from me. Goodbye guys.