ausy94
September 10th, 2012, 08:10 PM
Umm...where to begin. I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. My dad is unspuportivr most of the time and call me new a lot. I'm A bigger kid but very muscular(didn't use to be) I worked hard to lose weight but I'm still picked on about it a lot. I just smile and pretend it don't bother me but it does. I'm very shy due to other reason like every time I say something at home I get told tons hit up so talking really isn't my thing. I have a few friend but I don't feel like I belOng and that they just tolerate me(I know they don't though) I fell awkward and like an outcast ever where I have gone. I nevEr can get attached to people for some reason so i don't have anyone to talk about this with. I cry myself to sleep most of the time and when I wake up I put on the happy face and go to school like I don't even feel this way. I Think about suicide daily, but I don't want to die I just want to go somewhere where some one will like me for who I am and not make fun and judge me. Any advice please!! I know this might not make sense but I'm to upset now to make sure it does...