scars

[painful paradice]

so after three straight months and then some I screw up and I burn myself again and I do it over and over and over again every day for over a week. I kind of did it forty times in a week and then a few more times every day over the next few days. until yesterday I quit and I'm a day clean and I've stopped for the third major time. It gets worse every time and major times are like oh my god just part fish hooks around my ribs and pull my ribcage open already. Antis aren't helping very much. they had me on Prozac first then they ripped me off of that and I was alone for two years over which I started burning myself and so much other stuff that I won't go into. But they just recently put me on Lexapro for the depression but it isn't helping much, kind of did at first, but now it isn't.

but back to my original question. Sorry I always kind of rant out and lose my train of thought on these. but um...
so this time around I left scars. little lines on my wrist that just make me want to hurt myself more. God...
so um... I was wondering does it ever get easier seeing scars there or does there just keep having those reminders staring at you. I know it's a bit different for everyone, but like what's it like for you. scars and reminders and whatnot's.

[workingatperfect]

I've gotten fairly used to my scars. Once they start to heal, they don't really trigger me or anything, but seeing the fresh cuts makes me want to do it more.

[Noxail]

Once I'm done cutting, I don't feel like I have to cut again until my next panic attack. I personally love my scars. They're part of who I am :rolleyes: ~holli

[FullyAlive]

My feelings towards my scars changes dramatically all the time. At the moment when I look at them I feel quite nostalgic half want to add more but then I remember I want them to fade so I don't need to cover them.

[Mortal Coil]

I love my scars, but am also embarrassed by them. Or maybe it's that they're the one part of my body that I like and want to keep all to myself. Half the time I don't know. But I would never get rid of them given the option.

[xDarkAngelx]

Personally, I love all of my scars and I hate it when I see even one of them start to fade. The same as Alex aswell, if I had the option I would never get rid of them.