Anti depressents and counceling is not working

[Dimentio]

Well they put me on stronger anti depressents cause the last ones were not working at all, But in the past week, I been more depressed than ever and it deffinitly is not a side affect of the pills as i started taking them like early last month, But anyway, Lately i been thinking more and more of like hospitilizing myself so i don't have to go to college for a while and give me an excuse why work expirience would be hard for me and i was in the bath on Friday and i cut my ankles quite a lot with a razor just to hurt myself as an excuse not to go college because it hurt to walk but mum is making me still, And if i am cutting myself when i never thought i would, Who knows what else i will do?
And the thing is i was only at college for one day and we did nothing, Like the SUPER hard work with the really stressful times, Work expirience and everything else has not even started yet! When it does i think i will break my leg or an arm or maybe even worse.
I am going to see the phsycatrist on Tuesday then my councelour soon hopefully as i missed the last session so i will see if there is anything they can come up with but is there anything you guys could come up with!? Because my only thoughts are hurting myself to the point i physically can't go college.

[Breakeven]

u need to talk to ur doctor about Antidepressants and how they are not helping and be honest with the doctor

hurting urself to avoid college? thats not good for u
breaking a bone in ur body will lead to alot of bad side effects and even more dangerous things that u might not know and damage

college? if college is stressful atm in ur life , maybe take a year off? change the subject ur studying to something u love and enjoy if u cant , try ur best and make the best of it , try to relax , dont put the idea in ur mind that college is hard or stressful , we all have to face it one in our life and u do ur best and thats all u can do
and you are strong enough , talk to ur doctor maybe he can give u a note to college to give u less work? i heard that works in some places
and if u need someone to talk too , feel free to pm me
best of luck :hug:

[Dimentio]

Hey thank you guys for your comments and i will be telling my phycyatrist that the pills are not working as she/the councelour gave them for me to take so yeah, Clearly need better ones ha ha.
I would love to think how not bad it is, But being alone and constantly being reminded the work will be hard and we might give up and stuff it's just hard to forget, And Alive i am sorry to hear that you have been thinking my thoughts, I know i am being a hypocrite but you shouldn't, Hope you find a better job and everything soon, Thanks again.

[Matt_2012]

Yeah.. i tend to find anti-depressents and most of all counceling, not very helpful but they do help abit.. sometimes your body might not be absorbing the meds your taking.