that feeling.

[ArtistInNeed]

I feel like I'm too old for this shit. Wanting to cut, having that urge, I hate it. It's not even cutting anymore..I'm starting to think about suicide. Nothing is wrong in my life that would make me want to kill myself. I just do. Am I selfish for that? I don't have any real troubles. I'm just sad. I don't know anymore.

[bigfoot]

if there is no reason behind it, then its just depression. perhaps you can see your doctor for some kind of anti-depressant? its not your fault, just remember that. im here if you ever need me, but i probly wouldn't be much help considering that i am in a similar situation. hope things get better soon.
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about you signature, isnt that an everclear song? wonderful, right? thats like my favorite song ever.

[ArtistInNeed]

I saw a doctor a few years ago, and I was on prozac for a year or so, I would love to be on it again but..I can't tell my mom..shed be so dissapointed :(


and yea, its Wonderful :)

[bigfoot]

exactly same situation for me. my mom thinks its all in my head and that its something that i decide to happen. sorry im not any help.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Jamie... Just I guess, just try to talk to your mom about it and see if you can get on it or something again! If you trust her enough, tell her what your feeling lately and everything, I hope you can get some help with it.

[ArtistInNeed]

Jamie... Just I guess, just try to talk to your mom about it and see if you can get on it or something again! If you trust her enough, tell her what your feeling lately and everything, I hope you can get some help with it.

I don't trust my mom at all :( idk..i feel ok sometimes, but other times its like everything is in slow motion and I'm just standing there. ugh..

[NadiaG]

why dont you trust your mum? I used to self harm for 16 years. I recently started a blog to help people express and talk and ask questions . I went through all sorts of things in my life . there is light at the end of the tunnel. I PROMISE YOU :yes:

[ArtistInNeed]

why dont you trust your mum? I used to self harm for 16 years. I recently started a blog to help people express and talk and ask questions . I went through all sorts of things in my life . there is light at the end of the tunnel. I PROMISE YOU :yes:

my mom is crazy. I don't live with her anymore, but I know that if I told her she would yell at me and be like "i thought we were over this shit?" and I just dont feel like dealing with her..

[Mirage]

This happens. I felt it at one point and I'm sure all of us have at one time or another. You will pull through. You know why? Because you are much, MUCH stronger than this.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I feel like I'm too old for this shit. Wanting to cut, having that urge, I hate it. It's not even cutting anymore..I'm starting to think about suicide. Nothing is wrong in my life that would make me want to kill myself. I just do. Am I selfish for that? I don't have any real troubles. I'm just sad. I don't know anymore.

You're never too old.

Don't ever think you're selfish for thinking about suicide.

It doesn't matter about the how's or the why's, I don't think I have any real troubles/problems either. Sometimes it's just feelings that get too much and take over. I'm back at that stage now, thinking about suicide, cutting and just feeling really depressed and like you said that everything is going in slow motion (at least I think it was you that said that:confused:). I've been like it for days now. Everything is just going by in a blur. No idea how I'm managing to get through the days, but at the end of the day... It's the end of the day and the beginning of the next.

Just live each day as it comes. Things will get better.

I hope this helps, I feel like such a hypocrite for saying that, but I'm much better at giving advice than taking my own.

Feel free to PM me if you want to :)

[Fiction]

Then don't tell your mum? You're 21, you're perfectly within your rights to have your own secrets. You're an independent adult.

[NadiaG]

Jamie, no one knows how long you going to be cutting or hurting yourself for, I did it for years, so no one should force a time frame on you and insist that you no longer do it, but can I ask you something honestly........" Do you want to stop?" Not an easy question to answer because of the absolute pull and temptation you feel when you want to cut and the brief feeling of freedom afterwards, but after THAT brief feeling of freedom when you looking at the blood.......do you wish you never cut?

[NadiaG]

It would really be cool to get some feed back from any of you guys about what I just asked Jamie, ...........Do you want to stop cutting? and "do you regret cutting after?"' How old were you guys when you first cut. ?? wht made you start?? Hey listen, I was there for over 16 years, so I know what its like and what made me start, im just trying to understand why others start .........be cool to hear from you.

you not alone!!! hang in there ........

[LoveMe_HateMe]

It would really be cool to get some feed back from any of you guys about what I just asked Jamie, ...........Do you want to stop cutting? and "do you regret cutting after?"' How old were you guys when you first cut. ?? wht made you start?? Hey listen, I was there for over 16 years, so I know what its like and what made me start, im just trying to understand why others start .........be cool to hear from you.

you not alone!!! hang in there ........

Do I want to stop -yes
Do I regret it - yes
I was 14/15ish
Not even sure what made me start, Just feeling low I guess. Not even sure where I got the idea from either.

[ArtistInNeed]

Jamie, no one knows how long you going to be cutting or hurting yourself for, I did it for years, so no one should force a time frame on you and insist that you no longer do it, but can I ask you something honestly........" Do you want to stop?" Not an easy question to answer because of the absolute pull and temptation you feel when you want to cut and the brief feeling of freedom afterwards, but after THAT brief feeling of freedom when you looking at the blood.......do you wish you never cut?

Do I want to stop -I don't know. I know this is bad to say but I like the way it feels. To feel. If i could cut forever, I probably would. The only thing keeping me from doing it, is how hard it is to hide.

Do I regret it - When people see.

I was in 4th grade, not sure how old I was then.

I remember reading a book about it, it was a fiction book, and the girl in the book felt better after cutting. The book was about her getting help and being ok after, and it somehow made me start. weird.