oh look here's a surprise.

[bigfoot]

Just when I thought I could be happy again, it all comes crashing down. I'm cutting more than ever and really its taking more and more to satisfiy the urges.
Suicide. It will not get out of my head. I'm constantly thinking of ways and the reactions of others when they find out. I'm not gonna do it though. I love people too much. Well atleast today I was happy for a little while.

not sure what I posted this for. I guess to vent.


sorry to use your time.

[West Coast Sheriff]

Just remember to keep strong, and know we all care for you!

[Mortal Coil]

You aren't wasting anyone's time. Depression, cutting and almost anything else has to get worse before it will get better. If you ever need to talk or vent, you can PM me or just get it out, because the VT community may not be perfect but we will try to help you get better.
I wish you only the best, and am sorry to hear you're getting worse.

[PoseidonX43]

Always remember to stay strong! And sorry to hear you're getting worse! Pm me anytime you want to vent or just talk!

[Breakeven]

your are not alone in this , just keep trying and stay strong and if u need someone to talk too feel free to pm me :hug:

[NotAvailable]

dude, we are all here for you ... you can't be sorry for using our time!! we r friends and we are all here to support each other ..... i'm sorry if i can't help you , support you or at least to listen to you and think with u :)

[bigfoot]

thanks everybody...

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Bigfoot, you got everyone here thats willing to help you!

[Aceso]

It's good to talk, we all need to talk. I know how you feel, just came out of hospital. :/
It's okay to feel like you're out of control with self harm, I'm sure it's how most of us have felt before. Are there any specific triggers or times that you feel you need to cut?
It's good that you have something here to keep you from suicide though, keep those things close, and nurture them - only good can come from good. :) Do you have anyone you could go to about these feelings?
Stay strong <3

[bigfoot]

It's good to talk, we all need to talk. I know how you feel, just came out of hospital. :/
It's okay to feel like you're out of control with self harm, I'm sure it's how most of us have felt before. Are there any specific triggers or times that you feel you need to cut?
It's good that you have something here to keep you from suicide though, keep those things close, and nurture them - only good can come from good. :) Do you have anyone you could go to about these feelings?
Stay strong <3

no not really. i tried to talk to the school couneler person but that blew up in my face. my dad really is what triggers me. and the fact that i havent been genuinely happy in months. thanks for the response. you too Nirvana.

[Nathan Numberless]

Ah yes, Families and parents can sometimes be our greatest enemy; you are definitely not alone :D Just remember to stay calm, relax and start breathing... for calm will give you the answers...