I am a worthless slut...

[starring molly]

Granted, she cheated; but I cheated first. I felt unloved; and uncared for. I really did not want to do it; but I wanted revenge. I never let her meet any of my other girlfriends because almost all of them are my lovers...

So now she will not text me back; and it has been 3 days. All I have left of her is a sweater that she left in my room; and her IPOD. Was I that terrible that she would sacrifice her IPOD in order not to see me?? Where does this leave me; may I ask??

molly

[StoppingTime]

:arrow: Relationships & Dating

I think this fits a little better there.

[starring molly]

:arrow: Relationships & Dating

I think this fits a little better there.

Yes, you are correct; but there is no one here to offer me support...
I just joined. Where is every1???

molly:confused:

[StoppingTime]

I know you are in a bad place right now, but that doesn't mean that everyone has to come rushing to this thread. Just give it some time, and people will see it.

Personally, I don't think you should have cheated just to say "screw you" to your friend. People make mistakes, or sometimes, just really stupid decisions. That doesn't mean that you should be coming back and doing the same thing. If you are worrying about her, then actually go to her house, and talk to her. Or call her. Don't let it just go.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Im really sorry that happened to you, Molly. I dont know you, but I highly doubt your a bad person, Im not sure what she is thinking or anything... She may just feel really horrible about it. I cant say, I hope you can get stuff fixed up soon.

[starring molly]

I know you are in a bad place right now, but that doesn't mean that everyone has to come rushing to this thread. Just give it some time, and people will see it.

Personally, I don't think you should have cheated just to say "screw you" to your friend. People make mistakes, or sometimes, just really stupid decisions. That doesn't mean that you should be coming back and doing the same thing. If you are worrying about her, then actually go to her house, and talk to her. Or call her. Don't let it just go.

Thank you for your kind words; as I am in a bad place right now. If I must experience pain; than so must Erika. That is the way it has to be. I secretly followed her home the other day. I was hiding myself well. But, if she caught me; I would not know what to say to her; because I know I am irrational...

I am poor; she comes from a wealthy family. It is so bad that I had to leave the city and come to NJ for a while. At times; I think I can still smell her on me. My step mom just thinks that we were friends; but got suspicious at the end. I hate her too...

molly

Im really sorry that happened to you, Molly. I dont know you, but I highly doubt your a bad person, Im not sure what she is thinking or anything... She may just feel really horrible about it. I cant say, I hope you can get stuff fixed up soon.



Trust me; I can be vindictive. I want to love her; but I want her suffer so that she does not forget how she treated me. All those times I told that I was cold, when we walked in the park, was just an excuse to have her hold me closer to her...

She made fun of my poems; and diary. And those flowers that she gave me?? I dried them out. They are hanging on my wall. But I will smash and destroy them very soon... I will then take a picture and text it to her...

molly



I merged your posts. Next time, just use the edit button. :) ~StoppingTime

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Thank you for your kind words; as I am in a bad place right now. If I must experience pain; than so must Erika. That is the way it has to be. I secretly followed her home the other day. I was hiding myself well. But, if she caught me; I would not know what to say to her; because I know I am irrational...

I am poor; she comes from a wealthy family. It is so bad that I had to leave the city and come to NJ for a while. At times; I think I can still smell her on me. My step mom just thinks that we were friends; but got suspicious at the end. I hate her too...

molly





Trust me; I can be vindictive. I want to love her; but I want her suffer so that she does not forget how she treated me. All those times I told that I was cold, when we walked in the park, was just an excuse to have her hold me closer to her...

She made fun of my poems; and diary. And those flowers that she gave me?? I dried them out. They are hanging on my wall. But I will smash and destroy them very soon... I will then take a picture and text it to her...

molly



I merged your posts. Next time, just use the edit button. :) ~StoppingTime

I dont really blame you on how you feel about it. I dont thinking making her suffer will help, but remind her that youre there and you still love her. Its not really good at all she made fun of your diary and poems...

[starring molly]

I dont really blame you on how you feel about it. I dont thinking making her suffer will help, but remind her that youre there and you still love her. Its not really good at all she made fun of your diary and poems...


You are correct. She made fun of my poems and diary. At times; I want to pull her hair and kick her in her vagina. I want to push her down the stairs; but I know that I would come running down the stairs after that happened ~ so as to make sure she was not injured...

And then I would want to 'be' with her ~ only to explode and pull her fucking hair again; and smack her smug pretty face!!!

molly

[nice]

I think you need to sit and relax because I think you/are having some form of a small breakdown if you could hate someone this much who you once loved. I think if yous sit and think you will be able to think about how to confront her about you guys current situation.

[starring molly]

I think you need to sit and relax because I think you/are having some form of a small breakdown if you could hate someone this much who you once loved. I think if yous sit and think you will be able to think about how to confront her about you guys current situation.

I am on medication; which is not working for me. Do you know what it is like; wishing for love day after day?? Yet it is always some1 else that finds it... How can I be happy knowing that???

I walk around the city; the park. I see so many happy couples; yet I know I will never have that happiness. Like lost luggage on a plane; I will never reach my destination of happiness and love...

I must possess her; or she must pay the price of me breaking her heart in retrun. I smashed the flowers she gave me. I sent her a text picture. So I hope she is happy...

molly

[FreeFall]

You're in a bad place, figure out how to get out of it without dragging down others in your wake. Next relationship you have, learn to talk. Communication trumps all. Had you just talked it out with her, and not gone and broken her heart and trust and the sanctity of a relationship, things may have turned out differently. Learn from that.

What if you got an STD while cheating? What if you gave her one? What if she gave one to you? Would it have been worth it to do such a thing? Would it really have made anything and everything better to basically wage biological warfare on her?
My friend's ex gave her hepatitis B. It's not curable, she loathes him or doing that to her. She's going to live with this currently incurable disease, because he cheated. She hopes every morning he gets hit by a bus and dies terribly. Her life's gotten this chunk ripped out because of someone so selfish.
Stop stalking her too. It's not healthy for you or for her. Just stop.

Pretend she's dead. Find someone new. Someone that makes you feel whole. Find someone that gives you that warmth you crave, find someone that adores you and wants to protect your love. Find that person and become whole again.

[starring molly]

You're in a bad place, figure out how to get out of it without dragging down others in your wake. Next relationship you have, learn to talk. Communication trumps all. Had you just talked it out with her, and not gone and broken her heart and trust and the sanctity of a relationship, things may have turned out differently. Learn from that.

What if you got an STD while cheating? What if you gave her one? What if she gave one to you? Would it have been worth it to do such a thing? Would it really have made anything and everything better to basically wage biological warfare on her?
My friend's ex gave her hepatitis B. It's not curable, she loathes him or doing that to her. She's going to live with this currently incurable disease, because he cheated. She hopes every morning he gets hit by a bus and dies terribly. Her life's gotten this chunk ripped out because of someone so selfish.
Stop stalking her too. It's not healthy for you or for her. Just stop.

Pretend she's dead. Find someone new. Someone that makes you feel whole. Find someone that gives you that warmth you crave, find someone that adores you and wants to protect your love. Find that person and become whole again.

Who am I 'dragging down' as you put it?? I appreciate your input; but please do not try to relate to me; as you do not know me. I despise penis; so I most likely will not get an STD unless I hook up with a bi-sexual lesbian...

Sure, I still sleep with the sweater she left behind. It still smells like her; but the scent is fading. If she finds some1 new; I will find that new girl and scratch her fucking eyes out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very upset,
molly

[FreeFall]

You need a heavy reality check if you think you can't get an STD just because you're with strict lesbians. STD's are not limited to penis. Vaginas carry them too, no penis involved.

Nor am I trying to relate to you, at all.

You really need some you time to figure out your life and direction and get yourself back up to where you belong and the happiness and self security that you terribly deserve. You deserve happiness, confidence and self fulfillment.

It hurts now I'm sure, but it's not worth it. The damage is done, the fabric's torn. So learn to sew, create a new fabric. Create one you love to look at, one you love to feel. When you hate that fabric, shred it. Sew again, make another one. Be your own seamstress.

[starring molly]

You need a heavy reality check if you think you can't get an STD just because you're with strict lesbians. STD's are not limited to penis. Vaginas carry them too, no penis involved.

Nor am I trying to relate to you, at all.

You really need some you time to figure out your life and direction and get yourself back up to where you belong and the happiness and self security that you terribly deserve. You deserve happiness, confidence and self fulfillment.

It hurts now I'm sure, but it's not worth it. The damage is done, the fabric's torn. So learn to sew, create a new fabric. Create one you love to look at, one you love to feel. When you hate that fabric, shred it. Sew again, make another one. Be your own seamstress.

tied, tired...........drunk........ambine...ambien i fear jumping...........i get like this a times;;;;;fuck me; hate me;;;;;;lov me, bt i will not luv you back..............goodby 4evr........

molly

[FreeFall]

Hey now. Thing's will look up. I urge you to please talk to someone, tell them about this and how you feel. Find someone that can understand you, a trust worthy adult or such. It's going to be fine.

[nice]

Molly I think if you actually listened to what people on here were trying to tell you instead of saying people don't understand you someone could help you get through this. Whether it be me free fall or anyone else who commented. So know that everyone is trying to help you and sit down think clear your head and at least attempt to try actually considering things people are trying to tell you

[starring molly]

I am deeply saddened. I wake up today to see that I have received a negative reputation point? Why??? I poured my heart out here; which is not easy for me. And for that; I get a scolding, ~ Is that even fair to me???

It says I have engaged in bad character in the past?? Who posted that? And now I have a red dot below my name?? I am not sure if I am suited for this site.

Take care,

molly