I'm scared

[diStURbEd]

Ok, so it's been like 3 or 4 months cut free,

good stuff hm?

But lately I've been just, thinking. I got another blade and I don't know. Part of me really want to just cut and get it over with, but another part of me says no.

I'm really torn and afraid that one of these days I'm just going to cut and fall back again. I don't know, maybe I'm just a little pathetic

[Ironic Infidel In England]

You are not pathetic. 3-4 months is more that I've manadged since I started. I am on a month at the moment, and just got bought a penknife by my dad, and it's very tempting, so we're in the same situation, sort of. Pm me if you ever need to talk.

[diStURbEd]

Thankyou, It feels good knowing I'm not the only one. I don't like the way it feels, not one bit. It's not good and I know it, I just wish there was a way to stop it

[feel_the_silence]

It's so awesome that you are as far as you are! I'm almost to five months, and went through similar urges/feelings that you have now. It sucks, it reallly does...but if you keep going strong they will fade away. You will trust your own strength, you just have to get past some obstacles first. You've been doing awesome this far, if you want to talk or anything just message =]

and you are most definitely not pathetic!

[diStURbEd]

Thankyou so much for your support guys, it means a lot, I'll keep going strong

[dushanbe4]

Don't cut, an easy solution if you ever feel the need is to wear a rubber band around your wrist, and if you feel the need just "slap" yourself a couple of times. Trust me, it works!
Keep your head uP!

[mojane_jesus_gcfreak]

All i have to say bout cutting is i do it, and everyone always says dont do it, try to stop, but just the longing to feel anything but the emotioal pain, feeling that you're still alive is sometimes worth the cut...though the excuses get harder...

[heartagram72]

dude im in exactly same boat. i just found my old exacto knife, so i just want to go back and cut. for me it helps to think about how much my life sucked when i did cut, and that if i even do it once, it'll just be an addiction again.
ur not pathetic...we all feel this way, especially after overcoming an addiction.

[Sapphire]

I want to congratulate you on getting this far. It is a big thing even if some people try to tell you otherwise. We all struggle with the urges to cut again. Sometimes we will be strong enough to win these battles. Other times we may slip. The important thing to remember is that as long as there is a positive upward trend then you are doing well. If you slip just pick up where you left off with the same positive attitude.

[diStURbEd]

Wow, Thankyou so much. You guys have no idea, I am going to do my best and thankyou for all the encouragement and support.. I will try and get myself to throw away my blade and figure some things out.

Thankyou

[Mollie]

dude dont give up!!!

3/4 months is amazing!!!

throw your blades away!!! if youve gone this far you can keep going!

have you tried the ice cube trick? basically if u feel like cutting then hold an ice cube in your hand till the feeling passes... it still hurts but its not dangerous and it wont leave any scars

good luck!!! let us know how you get on

xxx

[RaisingSand]

I know how you feel. :( I haven't cut in over a month, but on Monday night I found some old pictures of my cuts and it just made me really, really want to do it again ... :( The only reason I'm not is because I don't want to upset my boyfriend (who also is/used to be a cutter, we have a very close relationship).
But lately I've been thinking maybe I should disregard that and cut anyway ... :(
It's really hard to fight the urge to do it, I know, I'm currently trying to, and I don't want to let it win (if that makes any sense XD). You should try and do the same.
I don't know you but I bet you're an amazing person and congrats on not cutting for that long. :) *hug*

[notsure101]

dont do its bad for u

[star_face]

I'm really torn and afraid that one of these days I'm just going to cut and fall back again. I don't know, maybe I'm just a little pathetic


your not pathetic at all, if your pathetic then the rest of us here are too, " which were not"

the main thing is if you do fall back, how you deal with it , will you just give up and start cutting and carry on, on the same path you were on before you stopped cutting wasting all the time and effort you have put into stopping cutting, or will you fall back and then decide it was a one off and your stronger than this and you can then carry on being cut free.

all of us fall back time to time but it's what you do after you have fallen back that makes the difference.

hope thats helps :]