SmexiLexie510
September 6th, 2012, 01:43 PM
I'd just moved house to live in a small area and it was the summer holiday's. I went to the park a couple of times, just walking my dog on my own, and this boy was there every time. He kept looking at me and about the third time I saw him, he came up to me and started asking questions about my dog, talking about his dog, that was how we first met each other. We got chatting, his name was Brooklyn and he gave me his number. We met up a couple more times in the park etc and then went for a coffee. He seemed really nice and I totally fell for him, like really badly, within a matter of days. Which obviously meant it wasn't headed in a good direction.. but anyway. We really got along well. A few weeks in we started dating and I went round to his house a few times etc. This was about four weeks into the summer holiday's.
We had our first kiss in this private area of the park on this love seat swing etc. And I thought everything was going so well. Too well I guess. Because at about the fifth week, I saw him and another girl sitting on the same seat, kissing and talking and all over each other. That kinda messed me up real bad because of how much I liked him etc.
He tried to apologize/explain via email, text and phone calls because I didn't want to see him in person. Then I just stopped answering him because I couldn't be bothered to do it. He'd really hurt me. Sixth week was over and I had to start a new school in the area. I walked into class a little late on the first day so everyone else was already in their seats. I didn't notice at first because I was too caught up in it all, the teacher introducing me, finding my seat etc, but as soon as I sat in the allocated chair and settled down, I turned to my right and he was just sitting there. I had no idea he was even at the school, which I know was bad, but for some reason he'd told me he was going to another school and I hadn't found out which one I would be attending until four days before I actually started. But anyway, he was right there.
And he just bit his lip and looked away. That was it. Not a word. Nothing. He didn't speak to me and barely looked at me for at least 2 weeks after I started. Every time I tried to talk to him, he would ignore me or pretend he had no idea what I was talking about. He denied everything. Then I found out that the girl I caught him with was in the year below, and was a right bitch. She made my life hell with her little friends and he did nothing to stop it. I was so angry and hurt for weeks and weeks afterwards.
Now, ages later, he sent me a text saying-
Sorry everything turned out so shit. Didn't mean to hurt you. I just wasn't thinking. Coffee next tuesday?
I can't believe he thinks I'm just going to take him back in and forget about everything. He admitted he slept with her whilst he was with me. I haven't replied to his text. He send another, like two minutes ago saying-
I really miss you Lexie and I'm sorry about what happened with Elise. I just want to see you on tuesday.
I don't know what to reply. He has effected a lot of my relationships at school and effected me in general. After everything that has happened, I still love him. I just feel confused, angry, hurt but I love him, so much so that I haven't been able to even look at another boy in that way since. I just feel like I need him again, but I know it's not a good idea. I'm on the edge, what do I do?
We had our first kiss in this private area of the park on this love seat swing etc. And I thought everything was going so well. Too well I guess. Because at about the fifth week, I saw him and another girl sitting on the same seat, kissing and talking and all over each other. That kinda messed me up real bad because of how much I liked him etc.
He tried to apologize/explain via email, text and phone calls because I didn't want to see him in person. Then I just stopped answering him because I couldn't be bothered to do it. He'd really hurt me. Sixth week was over and I had to start a new school in the area. I walked into class a little late on the first day so everyone else was already in their seats. I didn't notice at first because I was too caught up in it all, the teacher introducing me, finding my seat etc, but as soon as I sat in the allocated chair and settled down, I turned to my right and he was just sitting there. I had no idea he was even at the school, which I know was bad, but for some reason he'd told me he was going to another school and I hadn't found out which one I would be attending until four days before I actually started. But anyway, he was right there.
And he just bit his lip and looked away. That was it. Not a word. Nothing. He didn't speak to me and barely looked at me for at least 2 weeks after I started. Every time I tried to talk to him, he would ignore me or pretend he had no idea what I was talking about. He denied everything. Then I found out that the girl I caught him with was in the year below, and was a right bitch. She made my life hell with her little friends and he did nothing to stop it. I was so angry and hurt for weeks and weeks afterwards.
Now, ages later, he sent me a text saying-
Sorry everything turned out so shit. Didn't mean to hurt you. I just wasn't thinking. Coffee next tuesday?
I can't believe he thinks I'm just going to take him back in and forget about everything. He admitted he slept with her whilst he was with me. I haven't replied to his text. He send another, like two minutes ago saying-
I really miss you Lexie and I'm sorry about what happened with Elise. I just want to see you on tuesday.
I don't know what to reply. He has effected a lot of my relationships at school and effected me in general. After everything that has happened, I still love him. I just feel confused, angry, hurt but I love him, so much so that I haven't been able to even look at another boy in that way since. I just feel like I need him again, but I know it's not a good idea. I'm on the edge, what do I do?