I can't do this anymore

[DismaliciouSx]

To start with I graduated this year, thank god, but that means I have a job now which in all honesty is a great and easy job that pays $10 an hour. I'm just ungrateful. I fucking hate having to go to work, I can't stand the people and the work at times sucks. Anyways enough about work, I quit therapy once school ended because I hated going and I would just lie to him all the time, it was a waste of money that my family didn't have. And for awhile I was ok, not happy but ok. Now I'm lower than low, I want to start cutting again, my 19th birthday is in 10 days and frankly for the longest time that I when I've been planning to end it.

[Noxail]

You can do this. Don't put yourself down like this. Who doesn't hate waking up early to go to work? Any type of work sucks, so you are not ungrateful. You are just a teenaged boy. A normal teenaged boy. :D And honey, if you need therapy, please seek help. If you are not okay, you have to find someone to make you okay. It's not fair to deny yourself medical treatment because you feel like your family can't afford it. If you're going to recover, you have to learn how to put yourself first. I haven't even mastered that yet. You have to worry about yourself, or you'll continue to destroy your feelings. Abusing yourself is just as bad as abusing someone else. ~holli

[LoveMe_HateMe]

What Holli said pretty much covers what I was going to say anyway.

There was something else too, but I'm not quite awake enough to try and say it so it makes sense. Sorry :(