Whats going on?

[LozziRAWR]

Okay so I've got this really confusing issue at the moment thats been going on for about 3 years, I always thought it was just anger issues but i'm not sure anymore.

Whenever i experience intense negative emotion (such as anger and sadness) I seem to lose control of my actions. Its like i'm not the one controlling my body, i'm just a rag doll being thrown around. I get kinda trapped back in my head, detached from my body, i can see and hear what i'm doing, but have no means to stop myself. I'll say or do things that I wouldnt even think of doing under normal circumstances, and one time it got so bad i nearly killed my best friend.. i was just punching him and kicking him, i didnt want to, i wanted to stop but i just couldnt.. Sometimes it happens and i cant see or hear whats happening, everything's just black, and when its over, i cant remember a thing, but thats only very rare

I've been to see my counsellor about this and she says its just hormones and it'll sort out soon, but it hasnt and I'm scared i might hurt somebody. I've been to the professionals but i cant talk to them properly, its just a trust issue cos i know whatever i say will be told to my dad... and if it is serious he'll just be disappointed for having a mental daughter...

[radrach]

i would suggest removing yourself from the situation as soon as you notice this happening. i know its hard but that way you wont end up killing anyone.:)

[SmexiLexie510]

I know exactly how you feel, I experience/d this all the time.. it was down to my various mental illnesses and disorders.. but i know some people aren't as serious as that.. don't expect the worst, try asking your therapist about anger issues and maybe anger management so you know when and what to do if you feel it coming on, maybe exercises to do with controlling emotions. best of luck, PM me whenever :)

[Pseudopyrif notropis]

the professionals therepists cant tell your dad what you say, thats against the law

[that-god-chick]

i suggest just putting urself out there and trusting someone professional they cant tell anyone no matter what country you live in its against the law to talk about a clinet to anyone without there promission and the only way they will talk to someone or ask to talk to someone about u is if they are concerned for ur safety ie: u told them u were going to kill urself... just for am example..
this could just be a simple anger managment issue but even that can be hard to handle.. go talk to someone just to have an answer and know whats going on...
pm anytime if u need to chat i will be happy to listen and try to help the best i can..

[LozziRAWR]

i suggest just putting urself out there and trusting someone professional they cant tell anyone no matter what country you live in its against the law to talk about a clinet to anyone without there promission and the only way they will talk to someone or ask to talk to someone about u is if they are concerned for ur safety ie: u told them u were going to kill urself... just for am example..
this could just be a simple anger managment issue but even that can be hard to handle.. go talk to someone just to have an answer and know whats going on...
pm anytime if u need to chat i will be happy to listen and try to help the best i can..


Just wanna clear things up, i'm not SCARED they will tell my dad, I KNOW they will, they've done it every time i go, anything i ask them not to say, they say it as soon as he walks back in, like the one time i slipped up with my quitting self harm, with about 3 tiny scratches that were 2 weeks old, he still told my dad saying 'You could be at risk' -_- ugh.