crowdlost
September 2nd, 2012, 03:17 PM
So the title pretty much sums everything I want to say. This is my first post ever by the way, but I created this account now just because I am really depressed and I can't take it anymore.
I've know this guy for more than 3 years, and for the past 3 years we have been best friends. We used to hang out 24/7. We were inseparable.
So what the HELL just happened?!!! It's been 3 months, and I've probably seen him about 6 times during these 3 months. I'm so sick of trying to make him care. I've texted him, called him, went over to his house, done so many things for him and he never initiates talking to me, ever!!
He's been hanging out with another guy, and they've been inseparable these past 3 months. What I hate the most is that they do all the things that WE used to do. It really, really, really kills me when I see them hanging out.
I'm so lonely now, and I feel really mad. Yeah, I'm not even sad anymore that I've lost him as a friend. I'm just freakin' MAD.
A few nights ago, I just couldn't take it anymore so I texted him: "Heyy, what the hell man? Where you been? Why do I feel like you don't wanna hang out anymore?"
The response: "Dude! I really miss you! Just been a lil busy, that's all."
On one hand, I was happy with the text. But on the other hand, "busy"?!
I feel like I put WAY more effort into this friendship than he ever does, and did. I always put him ahead of everyone else in my life and whenever I see a text from him, I swear I don't even know how fast I have to answer!
I am not gay, but I am WAY too attached to this guy. I've been trying to hang out with other people but everyone in my freakin' town is a gossip so they just sit and start talking about my friend and the guy he's hanging out with all the time now. I'm just, like, "People! Shut the fuck up! I don't need another reminder! I get it, they're like brothers! Just shut UUPP!!!!!"
I've decided to post this thread now, even though this has been killing me all summer, because I hadn't seen him in a week and a half...until a few hours ago. I went to a small coffeehouse across town, and found the two of them there. They told me to join them, and it wasn't so bad actually. We talked, the three of us (I really personally have nothing against the 'new' guy...I just HATE that his friendship with my best friend seems to be JUST like mine with him)
I had a good time, hanging out the three of us. But then they looked at each other, and the 'new' guy winked at my friend and apparently that was a sign that he wants to get outta there. I got so fuckin' pissed when they left. You know why? Because this used to be US! I used to be that guy who winks at my best friend, and he immediately gets it and makes up some kind of excuse to leave...leaving whoever we were hanging out with alone while the two of us go hang out someplace else.
Sorry this was long. I just REALLY needed to vent. Wow, somehow, this really helped. Venting. I don't know why, but I feel better. Well, we all know THAT won't last.
I've know this guy for more than 3 years, and for the past 3 years we have been best friends. We used to hang out 24/7. We were inseparable.
So what the HELL just happened?!!! It's been 3 months, and I've probably seen him about 6 times during these 3 months. I'm so sick of trying to make him care. I've texted him, called him, went over to his house, done so many things for him and he never initiates talking to me, ever!!
He's been hanging out with another guy, and they've been inseparable these past 3 months. What I hate the most is that they do all the things that WE used to do. It really, really, really kills me when I see them hanging out.
I'm so lonely now, and I feel really mad. Yeah, I'm not even sad anymore that I've lost him as a friend. I'm just freakin' MAD.
A few nights ago, I just couldn't take it anymore so I texted him: "Heyy, what the hell man? Where you been? Why do I feel like you don't wanna hang out anymore?"
The response: "Dude! I really miss you! Just been a lil busy, that's all."
On one hand, I was happy with the text. But on the other hand, "busy"?!
I feel like I put WAY more effort into this friendship than he ever does, and did. I always put him ahead of everyone else in my life and whenever I see a text from him, I swear I don't even know how fast I have to answer!
I am not gay, but I am WAY too attached to this guy. I've been trying to hang out with other people but everyone in my freakin' town is a gossip so they just sit and start talking about my friend and the guy he's hanging out with all the time now. I'm just, like, "People! Shut the fuck up! I don't need another reminder! I get it, they're like brothers! Just shut UUPP!!!!!"
I've decided to post this thread now, even though this has been killing me all summer, because I hadn't seen him in a week and a half...until a few hours ago. I went to a small coffeehouse across town, and found the two of them there. They told me to join them, and it wasn't so bad actually. We talked, the three of us (I really personally have nothing against the 'new' guy...I just HATE that his friendship with my best friend seems to be JUST like mine with him)
I had a good time, hanging out the three of us. But then they looked at each other, and the 'new' guy winked at my friend and apparently that was a sign that he wants to get outta there. I got so fuckin' pissed when they left. You know why? Because this used to be US! I used to be that guy who winks at my best friend, and he immediately gets it and makes up some kind of excuse to leave...leaving whoever we were hanging out with alone while the two of us go hang out someplace else.
Sorry this was long. I just REALLY needed to vent. Wow, somehow, this really helped. Venting. I don't know why, but I feel better. Well, we all know THAT won't last.