it happened!

[star_face]

what i thought might happen has!

i hardly cut for 3 months, and any cuts were no where as bad as normal ,and not as ofen becuase i was going on holiday and i didn't want people seeing cut and scars and my parents finding out because they still don't know . so i let the scars fade and stuff.not all the scars faded before i went on holiday and i think my mum and dad have seen but don't know how to deal with it becuase were not close at all we don't really take about anything, and if we do talk it will be like grades and getting a job and such.plus i got a stupid tan too because i sunbathed all holiday with my arms bent in a werid way so that to hid them as best as i could

anyway too the point now i'm back and i can hide the cuts and scars again i've started cutting like my life depends on it, i really thought i was making progress but i guess it was just the through of getting found out that held off the cutting for a while. it's kinda been a huge set back and now i just think what the hell it doesn't matter anymore and i'm scared it's going to get out of control now because nothings hold me back.

[heartagram72]

try to take cutting up with a new habit.
thats what i did and i barely ever slip anymore.

[lallous]

I am not sure about this, but if cutting is anything like smoking (addiction-wise), try, like heartagram72 has suggested to take up another habit.
Like, for smokers there is the nicotine gum that they chew, and then after a while, if they get the urge to smoke, they take a piece of chewing gum.
Try to find something like that. And tell us if you do.

[Ironic Infidel In England]

Cutting is not like smoking. When you get to urge to cut, do something that gets your adrenaline pumping. Loud music, running, screaming, hitting a pillow. These can help a lot, in my experience.

[star_face]

i shall try what you have both said and let you know how it goes, it doesn't help that theres alot of stuff going on at the moment and it's bringing the past up :[
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