I don't feel

[Iron Man]

Right now, I just can't feel anything. Sadness....anger....nothing. I talked to an army recruiter today, and I want to join just so that I will probably get shot in combat, or even killed in basic (unlikely). I guess the only thing I feel is...I don't care about myself. If I died in a car accident, oh well. If I simply didn't wake up, oh well. What would be the point if I continued living? I will probably be alone for the rest of my life. If I don't join the army, I could go to college, but I would be broke for years from student loans. What's the point? I'm just a number.

[CharlieHorse]

Talk to a therapist. I know you've probably heard this, but just do it. Stop everything now and research and make an appointment. You may say that you don't want to, but just do it anyway. Please, for yourself, for the people who care about you, for me, for that beautiful girl out there just waiting for you to sweep her off her feet.
When you're living the life, with the fancy car, nice house, your dream girl, a rocking job, and you have all the love for yourself and the wonderful life you have, you will thank me ;)

In the mean time, screw everything else. The most important thing in life is to be happy.