Venting, sorry.

[XxfakexX]

So a few weeks back i had one of my 'bad days'. This basically consists of me feeling absolutely shit and doing anything to get rid of any bad feelings or thoughts i'm having. Well, this time was bad, so i had vodka and other spirits pretty much straight from the bottle. I can't remember much after that but when i woke up i was in hospital and had supposedly been screaming about taking it all away, wanting to die and I'd also taken some anti-depressents (not sure how many). When looking the mirror i was covered in scratches and bruises.
I guess what i'm scared about is that since then i'v had the overwhelming feeling of wanting to kill myself. These 'day's' happen randomly and i don't wan't to do something i regret, though councillors say i'm fine and it was a mistake, i can't control what i'm doing when it happens.
Sorry for ranting i guess i just need reassurance, or someone to tell me they're the same so i can feel better? Thank you.

[Mortal Coil]

It happens to me too, and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. Some days, I'll start out great, but within thirty minutes everything starts sucking. By the end of the day all I can think of is an overdose, or jumping.
I hope it's a really long time before you have another shit day, because they really are awful.
:hug:

[AwkwardTurtle22]

Don't be sorry, that is what this site is for, I hope you get better *hug*