LoveMe_HateMe
August 23rd, 2012, 05:30 PM
I don't know where I am anymore... Who I am anymore. Everyday just seems to go by in a blur... I don't know what I have to do. I don't know who I can turn to. I have so much shit going through my head... I don't know who I can trust... Who I know will lie for me when it matters the most. As horrible as it sounds, but I need to be able to trust someone even if my parents should ask them, I need to be able to trust them not to tell them.
I have my girlfriend, but I need someone else to talk to. I need some friends. I feel so lost and alone and I'm struggling to deal with it. Struggling to deal with anything...
Going back to college in a few weeks and I really don't know how I'm going to deal with it. I know that I'm going to come out worse at the end of it. I struggled enough last year - feeling isolated and everything. It got too much to handle. I don't want to go through that again. I wont be able to handle it another year. But... I have no one to turn to. I can't explain it to my parents, they wouldn't understand, can't tell my friends because, one they wouldn't understand and two I don't trust them enough. I am really dreading the next year.
I feel so low all the time and I just don't know what to do.
I can feel a breakdown coming soon and I'm scared as to what I'm going to do. Especially if its tonight. I have four bottles of wine, 5/6 blades and everyone's in bed.
I'm just so scared, I don't know what to do and this is a f*cking pointless post, as usual... Sorry guys :(
I have my girlfriend, but I need someone else to talk to. I need some friends. I feel so lost and alone and I'm struggling to deal with it. Struggling to deal with anything...
Going back to college in a few weeks and I really don't know how I'm going to deal with it. I know that I'm going to come out worse at the end of it. I struggled enough last year - feeling isolated and everything. It got too much to handle. I don't want to go through that again. I wont be able to handle it another year. But... I have no one to turn to. I can't explain it to my parents, they wouldn't understand, can't tell my friends because, one they wouldn't understand and two I don't trust them enough. I am really dreading the next year.
I feel so low all the time and I just don't know what to do.
I can feel a breakdown coming soon and I'm scared as to what I'm going to do. Especially if its tonight. I have four bottles of wine, 5/6 blades and everyone's in bed.
I'm just so scared, I don't know what to do and this is a f*cking pointless post, as usual... Sorry guys :(