Hope day!

[CyanideGoodnight]

So, if anyone remembers, last year Amaryllis did Hope Day. Well, she entrusted me to host it this year!

A warning, this will probably be the least thought out and least organized thing you'll ever be apart of.

Pretty much the idea is this: On September 3rd, I figure we could all post our survival stories. It doesn't even matter if you havn't completely overcome the issue yet. Just say how you got that far. It'd be a day to support others who feel their efforts aren't appreciated and a good reminder of the love, friendship, and family this website provides, as well as a good way to raise awareness to others.

You can also post your own poetry/artwork that has helped you/ is about the thing you're trying to get through. I'm also going to post a song that has helped me in the past and is the only reason I'm still here. Feel free to do the same.

Also know that it's not just for the VT community. Feel free to go out, spread awareness to all the things we here suffer from. As I said it's also to raise awareness. Maybe wear a white ribbon somewhere to represent ALL of the issues, because white is technically a combination of all the colours in the rainbow and if I got that wrong blame my 9th grade art teacher.

Love, Ashley

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Sounds good! :D

[Thunderstorm]

I'll be there :cool:

[CyanideGoodnight]

Instead of starting a new thread I decided to post on this one because I can't think of a title for the new thread.
Please post how far you got with WHATEVER it is you struggle with. As I said in the first post also feel free to post here EVEN IF YOU DON'T FEEL YOU GOT THAT FAR. It doesn't matter if you got through a SECOND of whatever, or TWO YEARS. I really don't care, you deserve support and love and you also deserve to feel like you've accomplished something. Also put anything that has helped you overcome your issues and any coping mechanisms that are especially effective. Also feel free to put any poetry you have about your issue.

Hi there. My name is Ashley. I started cutting/self harm on March 19th, 2009. I found this site shortly after, but never registered because I didn't have an email at the time. I continued to cut and hurt myself (Along with at least thirty attempts of suicide that barely anyone knows about) through the years. The day after I got an email account I joined this site. This place, along therapy with hellbent determination and REALLY REALLY great friends helped me get this far.

I am a year and then some without cutting myself. I still self harm, but the instances where I do are usually far and few in between.

My self-image issues got really bad around the same time I stopped cutting. I suppose all I did was replace self harm with more self hate.

But I'm working on these issues, and though it's hard, I have everyone here to help me and I try to help everyone back. It's why I agreed to take this on. I really want to support and give back to this community.

My therapist showed me something called "rock therapy". It's more or less where you get a rock, and you keep it. You put your strength into it, and carry it around. The idea is whenever you feel hurt, you can touch the rock and try to get back your strength. It's a literal portal rock of strength. Even if you feel you have no strength to put into it, don't worry, because nature put tons into it already. Touching it and feeling it in your hand also proved a great distraction for me. It doesn't even have to be a rock, it can be a necklace or ring or ANYTHING.

This song has also helped me over the years, and prevented me from having more suicide attempts than I do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL2ZwXj1tXM

So, happy hope day everyone, and thank you guys for everything :)

[AppealToReason]

Yay! I was waiting for this day.
I'll be quick, but fill more out later because I'm grilling and watching my Western films (For a Few Dollars More currently <3), so here it goes.

Hello. My name is Michael. I don't remember why or when I started SH, but I know it had to do with my grandfather's death and old memories coming back. When I was younger, my cousin made me try all kinds of drugs when I spent time with him. I guess this lead to my pill habits a few years later. I believe this is my third year of SH and fourth of pills, but I'm not too sure.
Anyways, I found VT October of 2010. It helped so much to know others were like me, but it wasn't until almost a year later in August that I met my Vt buddy, Z (Amaryllis), I still remember how shy she was to speak to a boy and how we began talking due a post I made on her thread. And we talked and talked and talked for months really. Of course, Over the years, I met another beautiful lady by the name of Jo (Magenta). I'm still plotting to steal her cat and always will. :3

I started to spend less time on VT, so I talked to my two weirdos less, but they really did help me a lot. A few months ago, I fucked up badly and sent a message to them that I don't remember sending along with sending one to my irl friend. It was stupid and I lost a lot of trust with it, so I left again. Of course, I didn't get my wake up call yet and continued to fuck myself up.
A few weeks ago, I ran into a guy who reminded me of my past abuser. I made a thread in this section going into greater details, but I had to come back to VT because this community helps keep me in check. Sadly, my two weirdos don't post anymore, but I have been doing a little better. I've manged to go some days without purging, smoking, popping, ect. which is better than I did away from VT.

I have too many songs that have helped me, most sad songs, so I can't list them all. :P
Well, sad songs help me one day and make it worse the next. I'm weird like that.
So that's my short story. Hope others get to this thread.
Hope all of you are doing fine as well. Happy hope day!