in a bad way...

[razorbladesalvation]

for the past 3years ive watched my life literally crumble around me,
family dieing, parents splitting up, family dropping to borderline poverty, kicked out of school, kicked out of 3colleges... things are really not going well.. ive allready felt true love and now shes walking out my life i literally have nothing to live for anymore, My own family doesnt speak to me anymore, none of my friends speak to me unless they want something, im getting sick of constantly being taken for a mug!!

I have never bin this close to the edge of actually taking my own like i really do not know what to do anymore, im so unhappy and im in such a bad place. I stopped cutting for awhile but just from lastnight a new 50 - 60 cuts came out on my legs as i lay in bed with 12" kitchen pushed against my throat, being that close to the edge and not being able to do it.... whats wrong with me!! i seriously need some sort of help there is no way im going to last a week the temptation is just building up inside me :(

[Thunderstorm]

Don't!!! We can help you! There are things that can be prevented, your detah is one fo them.

Well, since you couldn't kill yourself, that say something. That says something is stopping you from taking your soul of this world. Maybe someone ont he other side is trying to seay "Earth needs you." Or maybe someone on this earth actually needs you. and they are waiting for yu to find them. As I always say, life is a journey. A journey you should not take advantage of. And it i your choice whether you want to fulfill that journey. Who said life would come without challenges? No one. Stride over those mountains. You can do it. We believe in you :yes:

[PinkFloyd]

You've already confirmed that you have a problem that needs fixing. That's the first step to recovery. People on this sight can't physically help you but we can guide you in the right direction. I need you to talk to someone. A therapist, family member who you trust, really anyone you feel will understand your problem. Above all; I just want to know that you are going to keep on living no matter what kind of shit is thrown in your direction.

PM me if you need anything - Rob