I feel like depression has F**ked me up real bad

[conny]

ever since i was confirmed to be depressed like 6 months ago-ish, i feel everyday i get lesser of a person and more of a "robot"

everyone that i attract has been repelled some way or another because of what i am become (a monster-like-person maybe?)

btw people this is my first thread so i don't rly know what to put :P but anyways:

i got some tablets and they dont work, red-bull/monster/relentless works for me, don't ask me why, maybe energy rush

i am also on a 6-month waiting list (well about 3/4 month to go) to see a shrink which i really really don't want to do.

i also had a hard time accepting i was depressed but it was definitely easier after i accepted it and told my mother (my father wont support me and doesn't believe f*ck all, i also wen through a messed up stage with him(he was pretty violent towards me) and so i only have my mother to help me, and a few other family members/friends (ones that are left :P) and my brother wont back me up because hes too young, doesn't understand jack sh*t, and as ignorant af)

thanks for reading

[Mortal Coil]

Try taking up a sport. I've been there, and I understand that the last thing you want to do when depressed is get out of the house and run around or something, but once you get past that initial phase it will make you feel so much better. You will have something to take your mind off things, exercise releases endorphins, and it will help make things easier on your family.

[Jimmy Page]

Like Alex said,go outside and do something,it will help,it's the thing you want to do the least,but it helps,believe me
and about the shrink,I didn't want to at first either,but it will do you good,and if it doesn't you can always say "stop",just give it a shot first darling,and no one time isn't giving it a shot :P

[conny]

Thnx Alex & Ian, ill give it a shot :)

[Jimmy Page]

No problem darling :kitty:

[Thunderstorm]

Hang with your friends. They will coahc you through and are able to help you realate. After all, it's what friends do. Also, just sit down with your Dad at a family therapist and discuss your issues. Maybe you can sort everything out. Good luck1

[conny]

Jake, I dont sit down with my father, like i said in the thread :P, thanks anyway :)

[conny]

first Alice: id like to say, i sympathize for you so.
secondly: your not alone and can speak to anyone of us if you ever need advice or help, that's what we are here for :)
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and like Ian & Alex said, taking up a sport helps, except i took up a hobby (of fishing), which worked for a period of time, till the season came to an end :P, so i would advise taking at least something up ( cannot force but advise) as it keeps your mind off the problems (yes i know it can be hard, i've done it my self- and it constantly races through your head)

:O zoolander is f**ing hilarious (totally random :P)

and go to the gymnasium of you want, this is what i did after fishing ( i went with my brother so it wasn't as boring and kinda comforted me.... even though he is allot younger than me. and don't worry about people judging you, most people wont( sorry i cant say they all wont) but the ones that do are either jealous or just total head f**ks so don't worry about them they mean nothing.

and instead try going to a local GP and asking for advice, mine couldn't so nothing except ask me what was happening etc, but did refer me to a hospital, a shrink/psychologist, yeah i know it sound awful like you have serious mental issues ( i though that at first) but by people on here and assurance from my friends i decided " yes i will get all of the help i need" my fathers friend is the only one that understands (as well as my mother) and told me to get help, so i recommend that to you, and talking to friend/family for even more advice. and don't worry about grades ATM, mine are also dropping that why i chose to get help, you can always re qualify ( i think it still applies) you will have to check about that because i'm not sure, sorry.

yes i cant truly say medicine is a pile of Sh*t mine doesn't work either, neither my former ones or my paroxetine (spelled correctly i think :P), like i said i started taking energy drinks, but that just gives me a temporary high, then i'm at a low again so i don't recommend them.

and don't give up on the medication just half the dosage so you can get some sleep (don't recommend, but in desperate measures some things have to be done, i've not slept for a good few months so yeah, there's my advice, not practical, but none the less advice :P)

anything else just ask :)