yankeefan7723
August 21st, 2012, 01:42 AM
I don't know what it is, but if I'm not around a friend or friends I feel really lonely and isolated. I used to be really okay with not being around people a lot, but since my senior year where I really branched out socially, did prom, project graduation, got more involved with girls, and just went out more I feel like if I'm not doing that kind of stuff I'm...for lack of a better term, a bum...or maybe a loser a little bit especially when I go extended periods of time without seeing anyone (couple of days, a week). Not in college yet, working on getting into UPS as I have a connection. I feel as though if I get more involved in things this feeling will subside, but at the same time I don't know. I'm in this constant cycle of waking up with nothing to do and nowhere to go and feel trapped like I'll never meet new people or find new girls to talk to (which I want to do as I am a virgin and would like to find a nice girl to lose it with before I turn 19 in April. Don't ask why, but I don't want to be a 19 year old virgin).
Plus I stay up a lot during the night, most people my age do anyway, but it's lonely sometimes and it's easy to take a few hours of alone time and turn it into "I have no life, I'm a loser, what am I doing just sitting home". I plan on hanging out with people and doing stuff this weekend so maybe that will help, but right now it sucks. :(
Plus I stay up a lot during the night, most people my age do anyway, but it's lonely sometimes and it's easy to take a few hours of alone time and turn it into "I have no life, I'm a loser, what am I doing just sitting home". I plan on hanging out with people and doing stuff this weekend so maybe that will help, but right now it sucks. :(