My brother was going to jack off to me

[root]

I actually never told anyone this so I dunno why I'm telling you guys but I am.

So, my brother, he's a year younger than me...

My dad had blocked porn on my brother's computer and he just HAD to jack off to porn.

He knew that I get dressed in my room so he put his ipod camera there and tried to film me.

I saw it and I got really pissed but at the same time, I felt used. It's weird because my brother is a good guy. And I mean, a really good guy. He's considerate, shy, likes animals, jesus-loving; everything I'm not. He'd probably get along with you guys. He was only 12 and I was 13 but I kinda started to cut because of that. I felt like, I did not belong to myself.

I didn't want to forgive him, but at the same time, I don't think he knew what he was doing. He regretted it and we never talked about it again but...it still crosses my mind. I was enraged that he held me in such low regard but I guess he didn't know.

But it worries me because he's still kinda creepy. Like I don't wanna say but if a nice, self-conscious guy like my brother would do these things, then what the fuck would normal guys be doing? I tried to go lesbian but I just didn't like girls so I'm pretty content on being single forever.

lol, i feel like i'll regret posting this.

[Lost in the Echo]

He probably did this out of desperation, because when you are a teenager you're hormones make you really horny, and when his porn was taken away he needed to do something to " get off ". He sounds like a good kid, just tell him that what he did made you feel uncomfortable and you didn't like, and then he might stop. His hormones just got the best of him, everything should be ok though, don't worry.

[workingatperfect]

Wow, that is pretty creepy, and I'm sorry this happened to you. Feeling violated in any way by anyone, let alone a family member, can be very emotionally detrimental. It was incredibly disrespectful of him to objectify you like that and you have every right to be enraged and hurt by this. But it's something that eventually you need to overcome and realize that not everyone is going to be like that.

This may not make much sense, but maybe a "normal" guy would be less likely to do something like that, he'd be less, idk, desperate? And in all honesty, girls can be just as big of pervs as some guys can.

What exactly do you mean when you say you're worried that he's still creepy? Like, you're worried for him because he didn't seem to outgrow that phase, or you're worried for yourself that he may do something like that again?

Anytime you ever feel like you need to talk about this with someone, or about anything for that matter, feel free to pm me. I may not give great advice, but I'm a damn good listener haha. :)

[root]

I'm worried that he'll grow up to be some sort of sick perv.

[workingatperfect]

How old is he now? Things may change as he gets older and he'll probably realized that it was completely inappropriate and wrong.

[FreeFall]

There's a reason he did that, but it's not excusable behavior. There is no oh he was young, he was just horny, his hormones made him do it, no he fully thought out 'let me film my kin I need to jack off', just wrong. You're his sister. A brother, family, is never supposed to objectify you or treat you as something sexual. They're not supposed to violate your privacy and take away your security. I'm sorry to say it, but your brother may not be normal. He may grow up and sweep it under the rug, he may violate women he brings home the same way, he may grow-up and feel regret, he may just stop porn. Who knows.

I'm sorry this happened to you and I hope you're ok and in the long run you'll be ok.

[Foamy]

Melissa and bo are both right. He was desperate, and most normal guys are not that desperate. He should have realized that it was wrong to film you, but if he hasn't, then sit him down and have a little chat.

[root]

I know it's wrong. But I forgive him for it. He was 12, he's 15 now.

And yeah, he did realize it was wrong. He was really upset over it. I don't wanna bring it up two years later.

It's just that, him doing that to me made me believe that guys look at girls like objects no matter who they are. And, i didn't want to be with anyone who saw me as nothing but an object.

He's a really nice and honest guy. You guys probably would like him a lot. And he doesn't treat girls bad. He's very touchy feely, naive and sensitive...he has no idea.

[HunterSteele]

just tell him that what he did made you feel uncomfortable and you didn't like, and then he might stop.
That's not some universal answer that you can post everywhere. In this case her brother was caught and it wasn't something he'd try again anyway. So it's more about how the OP felt about it than being worried he'd do it again.

[dontfiguremeout]

It's just that, him doing that to me made me believe that guys look at girls like objects no matter who they are. And, i didn't want to be with anyone who saw me as nothing but an object.

Okay, well not all guys are like that! I am not like that at all! I am more into the girls personality! You just need to find the right type of guy! Trust me, you will find that guy! They are out there, and you just need to find them!

[root]

Okay, well not all guys are like that! I am not like that at all! I am more into the girls personality! You just need to find the right type of guy! Trust me, you will find that guy! They are out there, and you just need to find them!

Aww, thanks. :)