Brighter.Tomorrow
August 16th, 2012, 10:46 PM
Wasn't sure if this should go here or WPR.
In January I'll be 18 and moving in with a friend in Alabama. I'll be on the outskirts of 3cities, have 2promised jobs, and they're gonna help with a downpayment on a car. It sounds really great, right? =D
Well...I thought so too. And still do, I'm very grateful.
But I'm nervous..and scared.
Never in my life, have I been where my closest friends and family aren't within walking distance. Among my friends and family I've always been the 'strong one,' there for advice, help, guiding hand. I've always dealt with my problems internally, writing, or by helping others. Being surrounded by my friends and family is what keeps me strong, I've never had the chance to be the weak one, or the one needing advice.
It terrifies me to think that I won't have them. Yeah, I'll have my cell and internet, but it's not the same.
I think about it, and I'm afraid that I'll fail. That I won't make it. That I won't be able to handle this on my own.
I really want this move, it holds so many more opportunities for me, but it scares me.
Admitting all of this I feel pathetic, I feel like I should be stronger than this.
But in the end, I'm not...
In January I'll be 18 and moving in with a friend in Alabama. I'll be on the outskirts of 3cities, have 2promised jobs, and they're gonna help with a downpayment on a car. It sounds really great, right? =D
Well...I thought so too. And still do, I'm very grateful.
But I'm nervous..and scared.
Never in my life, have I been where my closest friends and family aren't within walking distance. Among my friends and family I've always been the 'strong one,' there for advice, help, guiding hand. I've always dealt with my problems internally, writing, or by helping others. Being surrounded by my friends and family is what keeps me strong, I've never had the chance to be the weak one, or the one needing advice.
It terrifies me to think that I won't have them. Yeah, I'll have my cell and internet, but it's not the same.
I think about it, and I'm afraid that I'll fail. That I won't make it. That I won't be able to handle this on my own.
I really want this move, it holds so many more opportunities for me, but it scares me.
Admitting all of this I feel pathetic, I feel like I should be stronger than this.
But in the end, I'm not...