WaffleSingSong
August 14th, 2012, 10:15 PM
Hello, I really did not know if this was the right forum, as I'm not really having a full-blown crisis, but I think it might slowly be developing into one.
Now, I really do not know why how I came to be EXTREMELY shy. I mean, I am actually one of the more accepted people in the class of 2016 where I am from, but It's still really hard for me to directly spit out words and think clearly when I am talking to someone, especially some girls (and I am not really a flirty type...I think...) Maybe it is because I am afraid I will mess up somehow? I can not really tell. I am also ESL, But I can still speak English perfectly.
Well, today in my 5th period (which is choir, if you want to know) I actually kind of thought about it, and I thought about it more, and depression then hit me like a train. I usually never cry, In fact, Last time I cried was in the 5th grade when a baseball hit me in the groin (Alright, stop laughing...) but this special moment I was almost in tears, I could not even sing or even properly think for that matter because my mind was too busy with the shyness and the emotion that hit me. It also traveled on to 6th, and then Academic, but It really did not hit me so hard those two, even though I still felt it quite a bit.
And after I got home, It hit me again, And I fell asleep. Actually, I just woke up about 15 minutes of typing this. I really do not know what to do, even though I do have a phycaritrist for free for family problems (even though they really do not effect me) I think I might actually need her for this. But, Asking fellow teens is another good way to sharpen the spear.
So, any advice?
Now, I really do not know why how I came to be EXTREMELY shy. I mean, I am actually one of the more accepted people in the class of 2016 where I am from, but It's still really hard for me to directly spit out words and think clearly when I am talking to someone, especially some girls (and I am not really a flirty type...I think...) Maybe it is because I am afraid I will mess up somehow? I can not really tell. I am also ESL, But I can still speak English perfectly.
Well, today in my 5th period (which is choir, if you want to know) I actually kind of thought about it, and I thought about it more, and depression then hit me like a train. I usually never cry, In fact, Last time I cried was in the 5th grade when a baseball hit me in the groin (Alright, stop laughing...) but this special moment I was almost in tears, I could not even sing or even properly think for that matter because my mind was too busy with the shyness and the emotion that hit me. It also traveled on to 6th, and then Academic, but It really did not hit me so hard those two, even though I still felt it quite a bit.
And after I got home, It hit me again, And I fell asleep. Actually, I just woke up about 15 minutes of typing this. I really do not know what to do, even though I do have a phycaritrist for free for family problems (even though they really do not effect me) I think I might actually need her for this. But, Asking fellow teens is another good way to sharpen the spear.
So, any advice?