Life.

[SkittleBear]

I've been very depressed lately.. and I have been hiding it from everybody.. I haven't been able to cry because I'm used to holding it in.. so I cut myself for the first time. I can't stop now. My mother noticed scars on my wrist from the first time I did it and she asked me about it.. I told her our cat did it.. I've been cutting on my left shoulder now.. and every time I see the blood from the cuts, It gives me a little relief from the stress.. I'm the kind of girl people would describe as.. happy, joyful, random and hyper.. but nobody knows ME.

[Cicero]

Im very sorry to hear. When people cut, it releases the feel good hormones. Because the brain doesnt really know how to respond to it. Instead of cutting, try to take walks and listen to music. I can honestly say, that Im addicted to this. I walk almost 2 miles 3-4 days a week during school, just because of the stress, for me, this is my feel good release of hormones. Take a pledge to yourself to stop cutting, your the only one who can stop. If needed, talk to a counselor, whether at school or a proffesional. Try doing as much as possible to get your mind off of this stress, try taking walks in your neighborhood or town while listening to music, its both relaxing and calming. This may sound weird, but yoga can also really help.

[December]

I know how you feel, I think my friends would describe me the same way (and also people are always telling me I never stop smiling and all) but its only because they don't know what is really going on. Self harming can be very addicting, so if you can you should try and find an alternative that also relieves your stress, like running or walking or writing or reading or music or anything really that you like to do. It is not always easy especially if you have no one you are close to to talk to about what is troubling you, but sometimes you just have to accept that not everyone is going to be able to see and know the real you, and that is okay. I have maybe one friend that I can really confide in, so maybe you should try talking to someone you really trust. In the meantime, hang in there, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always message me. Stay strong, I hope that things get better for you :)