Two attempts

[HunterJumper]

I've made two attempts to kill myself and have been getting worse with each one. I feel lost in my own mind and don't know what to do. I'm scared of succeeding, but I also wouldn't mind a permant escape from the flashbacks and pain. I just don't know what to do any more. I've cut to give temporary relief, but thats going so much farther than I ever thought it would.

[HunterSteele]

Can you tell us what's causing the pain? School, family, or something else?

[Perfectly Flawed]

What's causing you to feel like this?

[PinkFloyd]

Talk to someone. Get help. VT is an excellent start but you need to tell us what's bothering you so much. After telling us we can point you in a good direction. What I would do is seek professional attention. Again, I don't know what's making you like this.

best of luck - Rob :)

[project_icarus]

If you aren't comfortable with posting what's getting you down to the point that you want to kill yourself, remember, you can always message me, or anyone else on here or offsite if you have Skype or another form of offsite contact.
There is some great help out there, again, if you aren't comfortable with posting it, try looking at this (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1106146&postcount=2).

All the best.

[bigfoot]

Maybe you should talk to a counseler or a close family member or friend that you can trust. It always helps.

[Noxail]

Sweetheart, everything is going to be okay. Take it from the queen of failed suicide attempts, last night making number 13, Life is worth living. You really, really need someone to talk to, and as much as I hate to say it, VT isn't the place to find that. You need a bestfriend, a teacher, a parent, someone to talk to. Everything is alright. Just find someone to listen ~holli

[Mirage]

I'm sorry. Please don't take your life, there are so many people that would miss you even though it may not be obvious to you now. Please stay with us!

[FullyAlive]

I'm only assuming that with two attempts you've probably gone to hospital? You may not have, I know I never bothered but assuming you have they will give you someone to talk to.

If you haven't then you should pay a visit to your GP they can refer you to a psychiatrist, my GP was the one that really helped me and I do recommend going. You need to find someone professional to talk to you can't do this alone.

Now as for wanting to cut and escape etc i've been there this time last year I couldn't see the light at all and I thought it would never get better but it does it really does. Once you confide in someone you can start working on how to feel better it won't be instantaneous but it will happen.

[Alliegator]

You said it yourself, you don't want to succeed so don't. Don't even attempt. You can find something that makes you happy and hold on to that, whether it be a person, a physical activity or anything else. And get help because it's the least you could for yourself, talk to your parents, a good trust-able friend or adult in your life. Even finding a good person on VT to pm back on forth could help.