Have you done the same?

[MeowMeowMeow]

Ok, so I have been cutting since the sixth grade and I am a high-school sophomore now. One day my parents got into it real bad and we had to leave that night. I was having suicidal thoughts and cutting just seemed to be getting worse for me. Well one day my parents were fighting and my mom told my dad I cut because of him. He was not aware of my cutting issue until then. He freaked out and started to curse me out and I was clean for a good two months (only because they were constantly hanging over my shoulder). I started having real bad self esteem issues then and started again but also would make myself throw up every time I would eat. I went through a real bad phase to where my mom ended up getting me a therapist. Well I have been clean for a month now but am starting to really consider cutting again. I want to so bad but I came so in to stopping. Any advice on how to keep myself from doing so? I am hitting epic depression stage again and really want to but I've come so far and I don't want to disappoint myself or others. Please help!:(

[Immortal Love]

I've just gone through the same thing, Janie. I was clean for maybe 8 or nine months. Then Tonight I unfortunately relapsed.

What I originally was doing to keep myself from Cutting was I kept my mind busy with other things. Sleeping, Reading, Drawing, etc. If you like to watch certain things, then watch them.

I've been looking at cute pictures of Cats and Dogs recently.
Or even Singing really helps. Find a good, loud song to sing when you feel bad, and sing it. Let your heart and soul out through music.

Best of luck! I hope I can help~

[BrittneyB]

Janie, anyone who makes you feel like you have to cut, isn't worth harming yourself for. It may seem hopeless now, but just remember that there is a future and, sorry for the cliche, it does get better. It was wrong for your mom to use your self harm as leverage over your dad, but people say stupid stuff when they're angry. Maybe try seeing your therapist again? or at least find someone you trust to talk to. You're incredibly strong for stopping as long as you have so be proud girl :)

[MemoriesLost]

I have done the same. I am DOING the same. I have been getting help here and on other sites too. I've also been avoiding my parents and other family members to the best of my ability... I don't know if it will help me in the long run, but I feel like I don't have to hide as much when they're not around. You can also talk to it with friends or a doctor. Just hang tight to the thought of how you've made it for a month- why throw your hard work away? You're strong enough to get through this.