DontKnow
August 2nd, 2012, 04:45 PM
Well, shall we start.
Well, it all started when I was in elementary, I was that funny guy yeah I got popular because I made some of the " Popular Kids " laugh a lot and eventually started hanging with them. I was really immature, still am and I was curious about my sexuality. Well, when half the school year started, I went to a all white school, lived in a apartment. Well, the apartments was full of kids my age and 15+. I've went to a school called Rochester, all white school of course. The grades went k - 6. Yeah, everybody didn't wanna hang with me or something? But, I was getting asked a lot of questions I was lying to make my self seem cool. The kids I was hanging with was really deep in Sports so that was our main topic. I was getting questions like "Are you a QB," "Can you play basketball" ect.. So, I got hanging with some of them sit at there table with them and hanged. Eventually I had a desk to one of them. Cameron, the most popular boy in the little ' Group '. As me being a joker, and liked seaking attention I got his attention and made him laugh a lot. Things went from there started playing with them ect.. They was really cool. Now, I lived at a apartment with full of kids. 9 - 15. I had two best friends, one I made money with. And one I played a lot of CoD with. And the other one, wasn't really a best friend but he was really cool. Jayden, Charlie and Jason. I've been hanging out with Jayden a lot every since we both found out that we liked CoD a lot. He gave me Mw2 and I looked out for him every since. Eventually school year went by and it was the summer. Now, me being curious about my sexuality and all will do anything. We was playing CoD at my house my mom works nights and my brothers sleep a lot. We play CoD get bored, and we just started to ask each other questions. He said, ever kissed a guy, I said no. It came from there somehow and surprising we started kissing, we've been kissing on a daily basis now at night time anywhere. Now Charlie, Charlie was a good friend, but his racist comments just pissed me off. I got me a girlfriend name Lexy, I didn't have a phone at the time so I just texted her off his phone. Me and Lexy was a on and off relationship. Me and Lexy got back together, and we went from there. Charlie had her number on the phone and decided to start texting her why she shouldn't go out with me. Alright, so I'm hearing this from Lexy on Facebook and told her I'll be right back. Got off facebook, went to Charlie apartment with Jayden and just wooped him ( Yes, perfect sterotype ) but I think it was because I wanted attention and just wanted to impress my girlfriend. We broke up, and me and Charlie started to hang out, we hanged out a lot at his place with Jayden. I've told Charlie that me and Jayden kissed Charlie was like I kissed a boy too? So, Jayden being Jayden dared me and Charlie to kiss, we did and went from there we all kissed each other ( French kiss, like 2 min kissing ) . Soo, sadly I had to move from the apartments to the west side. Thinking about it, I just moved from a Rich white neighborhood to a poor ugly neighborhood. I was kinda like Uncle Rucas. Well, I'm get to the point.. I don't know if I'm gay or straight. I don't believe in Bisexual. I met this girl in school and I felt in love with her, I haven't had a girlfriend in years thinking since Lexy. I just think I'm ugly, and desperate. This girl is a tom boy with dredds. Great personality, I've been thinking about her every since. But, I'm afraid me being not to good looking with bushy eyebrows is going to deny me to every girl I want to have a relationship with. It's been killing me! My family calls me ugly, and so do some of the girls at school. But that doesn't really bother me because most of them are my friends. I just want to have self confidence but Im not getting that. I just want to be a different person, I don't want to be gay or bi I want to have a normal life. It's killing me!
Well, it all started when I was in elementary, I was that funny guy yeah I got popular because I made some of the " Popular Kids " laugh a lot and eventually started hanging with them. I was really immature, still am and I was curious about my sexuality. Well, when half the school year started, I went to a all white school, lived in a apartment. Well, the apartments was full of kids my age and 15+. I've went to a school called Rochester, all white school of course. The grades went k - 6. Yeah, everybody didn't wanna hang with me or something? But, I was getting asked a lot of questions I was lying to make my self seem cool. The kids I was hanging with was really deep in Sports so that was our main topic. I was getting questions like "Are you a QB," "Can you play basketball" ect.. So, I got hanging with some of them sit at there table with them and hanged. Eventually I had a desk to one of them. Cameron, the most popular boy in the little ' Group '. As me being a joker, and liked seaking attention I got his attention and made him laugh a lot. Things went from there started playing with them ect.. They was really cool. Now, I lived at a apartment with full of kids. 9 - 15. I had two best friends, one I made money with. And one I played a lot of CoD with. And the other one, wasn't really a best friend but he was really cool. Jayden, Charlie and Jason. I've been hanging out with Jayden a lot every since we both found out that we liked CoD a lot. He gave me Mw2 and I looked out for him every since. Eventually school year went by and it was the summer. Now, me being curious about my sexuality and all will do anything. We was playing CoD at my house my mom works nights and my brothers sleep a lot. We play CoD get bored, and we just started to ask each other questions. He said, ever kissed a guy, I said no. It came from there somehow and surprising we started kissing, we've been kissing on a daily basis now at night time anywhere. Now Charlie, Charlie was a good friend, but his racist comments just pissed me off. I got me a girlfriend name Lexy, I didn't have a phone at the time so I just texted her off his phone. Me and Lexy was a on and off relationship. Me and Lexy got back together, and we went from there. Charlie had her number on the phone and decided to start texting her why she shouldn't go out with me. Alright, so I'm hearing this from Lexy on Facebook and told her I'll be right back. Got off facebook, went to Charlie apartment with Jayden and just wooped him ( Yes, perfect sterotype ) but I think it was because I wanted attention and just wanted to impress my girlfriend. We broke up, and me and Charlie started to hang out, we hanged out a lot at his place with Jayden. I've told Charlie that me and Jayden kissed Charlie was like I kissed a boy too? So, Jayden being Jayden dared me and Charlie to kiss, we did and went from there we all kissed each other ( French kiss, like 2 min kissing ) . Soo, sadly I had to move from the apartments to the west side. Thinking about it, I just moved from a Rich white neighborhood to a poor ugly neighborhood. I was kinda like Uncle Rucas. Well, I'm get to the point.. I don't know if I'm gay or straight. I don't believe in Bisexual. I met this girl in school and I felt in love with her, I haven't had a girlfriend in years thinking since Lexy. I just think I'm ugly, and desperate. This girl is a tom boy with dredds. Great personality, I've been thinking about her every since. But, I'm afraid me being not to good looking with bushy eyebrows is going to deny me to every girl I want to have a relationship with. It's been killing me! My family calls me ugly, and so do some of the girls at school. But that doesn't really bother me because most of them are my friends. I just want to have self confidence but Im not getting that. I just want to be a different person, I don't want to be gay or bi I want to have a normal life. It's killing me!