Everything should be fine, but it's not.

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Hey guys,

Well, I haven't cut myself in ages. About 2 months now, but the reason I stopped is becasue my mum got me a counselor and they spoke to the school about my bullying issue. So everything should be fine right? Yet it isn't everything should be fine and I shouldn't want to cut but I do. I really don't understand it, I use to get this like itchy feeling under neath my skin of when I wanted to cut and recently it's come back. Their isn't a day that goes by that makes me think of ways to hide it from my parents if I did it. So yeah, I feel like to abide by the rules of this site I need to ask ways to stop but I really don't know how to ask it. I haven't spoken to my counselor in ages and I don't know what happened, so yeah I've been pretty shity lately. I don't reach out to my friends anymore, I don't talk to my parents about it. They make it worse because the call me Mr. Cutter and I don't like it i ask them to stop they don't and I am almost about to do it right now. I have also considered other ways of doing it now like I use to only cut but now I have bruised myself and I want to take up burning. So I really have no idea why I'm thinking like this, it's almost as if the time I wasnt self harming I was finding better ways to do so.

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I don't think its a case of "my life is fine so i don't need to self harm". in my opinion its an addiction that you don't really have a lot of control over. what sort of things did your counsellor do to help you stop? maybe you can try those things again? Can you go back to see him/her? i know it is hard to reach out to friends. i always think my friend has enough problems of his own so i don't want to bother him with mine - but if it was the other way round and he had a problem i would want to help him out with it. maybe you don't want a whole lot of advice on quitting, specially from someone who hasn't. but it would be a shame to start again after 2 months not doing it.

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Hey guys,

Well, I haven't cut myself in ages. About 2 months now, but the reason I stopped is becasue my mum got me a counselor and they spoke to the school about my bullying issue. So everything should be fine right? Yet it isn't everything should be fine and I shouldn't want to cut but I do. I really don't understand it, I use to get this like itchy feeling under neath my skin of when I wanted to cut and recently it's come back. Their isn't a day that goes by that makes me think of ways to hide it from my parents if I did it. So yeah, I feel like to abide by the rules of this site I need to ask ways to stop but I really don't know how to ask it. I haven't spoken to my counselor in ages and I don't know what happened, so yeah I've been pretty shity lately. I don't reach out to my friends anymore, I don't talk to my parents about it. They make it worse because the call me Mr. Cutter and I don't like it i ask them to stop they don't and I am almost about to do it right now. I have also considered other ways of doing it now like I use to only cut but now I have bruised myself and I want to take up burning. So I really have no idea why I'm thinking like this, it's almost as if the time I wasnt self harming I was finding better ways to do so.

I like what southpaw slayer said I think. I think it has not as much to do with what your life is like (not diminishing it, though it could very well play a roll) but more that it is an addiction. Cutters, Druggies, Alcoholics, etc all have the same problem. They have no reason to do it but they do it anyways because they're addicted.

I know 100% what it's like to be called names by your parents about cutting and such. It's awful, and I think like any other bully, they just want a reaction out of you. So if you're gonna react don't do it in front of them, it just energizes them.

And the only way you will get better is if you reach out again. From what it sounds you were doing so well for a while when you were and you stopped and it's not going as well now. And this is an awesome step one. But as good as VT is, you gotta do it in real life. I know it's hard and you might not know what to say, and I don't know what to tell you to say either. You just gotta be honest I suppose and say what the problem is if you wanna get better.

I wish you the best of luck, and I'm always here if you need someone. <3