Wtf should i do im ribbing my family apart

[Conner Davies]

right it all started on Friday or Sunday night when i wanted to bring my dog in (he never comes in at night and i dont like it when hes not in and safe) so its like 12:00 and my dad was like come in conner. i was like NO so he grabbed my torch and said "here i'll find him and tomorrow were putting him down". now its hard to tell if he meant or not, hes always been like that. so i grabbed the lead and starting hitting him with it saying NO NO U CANT. he looked me square in my eyes with his alcohol stained breath and said "dont start something u cant finish boy." at that point turtle uncle was arrive if u know what i mean. then we found the dog brought him inside. then my dad said "well u over reacted abit" then i just flipped at him saying " U HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THE DOG MEANS TO ME" (he means alot to me say if there was a fire a mother would look to her children i would look to him and same him first) by this time my mum is rolling on the floor crying her eyes out. then she says "shhh some1 might call the cops" then my dad said "good they might take him away" so i ran away there and then. the cops where out looking for me and everything. in the end my nain found me. we went home (never spoke to my dad just the police man). i grabbed some clothes and my dog. then i spent the night (well morning) at my nains.then the next day i spoke to my cousin (who is the only friend i have left) and she also spent the night at her nain. i asked her why and she also had a big arugment with her step dad the difference is she didnt run away. then we had some fun for a bit.

then the next day

the dad came round so guess what... i ran away again :) i went to my grandad brother farm. where his sister daughter (who had no idea about any of this) found me. then i spoke to my cousin and her nain. (who lives near the farm) i spoke to my cousin who gave me abit of a reality check. then i went for a walk with them. then when i went back to mine nain. i found out that my cousin mum doesnt want me to see her because apparently i treat her like shit. which i never would. she is the only friend i have left. my nain and her nain is allowed to go behind my cousin mother back to let me see her. now i dont know whos lying. this is the part thats spilting my family apart and i cant live with that. literally...

later on that day my nain inveted my dad round. i went home with him (much to my displeasure) so this morning he was trying to be my friend and i dont think i can forgive him and then theres the problem with the cosuin and i dont know what to do!!!!!!!!! i coming back up to see my cousin on wednesday. what should i do becuase i dont know how long ive got left...

[FreeFall]

No, you're not ripping your family a part.
They're ripping themselves a apart.
Your dad sounds like a mega jerk that shouldn't be allowed to drink and learn that he's not a funny guy. Your mom sounds pathetic for not protecting you, and going mama bear, and being more concerned with keeping their image nice and clean by worrying over the cops.
I'm not sure about your cousin, if she likes you and really wants to talk to you she will find a way to go around her mother's wishes.
But what do you mean by time left?

[Christheman]

Well you dad owes you an apology and it looks like he was trying to. And you are only running away from your probelms confront them and work them out and your family needs to do that too.

[Conner Davies]

But what do you mean by time left?

well i might u know... kill myself but i cant put that on them so...

[FreeFall]

I figured you'd say that.
Go get help. Go into a hospital, tell them you're suicidal and get help. Since you can't tell your family since they're not there for you now. Suicide's a very terrible and very selfish thing. It's not the answer to this problem at all.