to scared to tell

[that-god-chick]

so for most of this yr so far i havent ate alot but when i do eat i tend to only have have dinner then afterwards i will go have a shower and make myself throw up. some of my friends and my youth leaders know i dont eat and iv talk to our school counsellor about it once. but im to scared to tell anyone i force myself to throw up i dont want them to know. i just cant stand my body im so fat people have tryed to tell me im not fat but i look in the mirror every morning and night when i have a shower and i see is fat, so how can they tell me im not fat when thats all i can see.


*sorry for typos im on my ipad*

[Gigablue]

They are telling you the truth. You're not fat, you only think you are. I know me saying that doesn't make you feel better, but it's true.

You need to tell someone who can help you get help. The sooner you get help, the sooner you'll recover. Tell you parents if you can. They might have noticed a problem, and they will want to help you. If you can't tell them, tell another trusted adult who will be able to help you.

[Mortal Coil]

You really should seek help. This is unhealthy and the fact that you are making a thread about it shows your willingness to recover.

Best of luck, beautiful.

[that-god-chick]

i really am fat, if u sore me u would know that. thanks but i cant talk to anyone iv gone to a couple of time but each time i just freeze up and cant do

[Mortal Coil]

Even if you are fat (which I highly doubt) an eating disorder is definitely not the right way to slim down. Trust me on this one, I'm stuck in it and it's terrible.

If you freeze up, try writing a letter or making an audio recording of your confession. this way you don't have to deal with the pressures of face-to-face communication.

[Amaryllis]

Courage isn't the absence of fear but doing what you must even though you fear. I know it's so, so hard to tell the truth. It's hard to get the words out, to see how they'll react, to feel shame and to have to face the truth. But Chloe, please, please believe me when I tell you you will be much happier if you're honest.

It's not too late for you to be free from your eating disorder. Don't wait till you're lying on a hospital bed with 25 years of your life chopped off. When it's too late to turn back because it's a really terrible place to be in. Even worse of a place than where you are now which is really saying something.

Be brave, love. Get help. It'll be the best thing you've ever done and when you look back - when you're all recovered and free, you will be so proud of yourself. You deserve to live more than just a half life struggling with bulimia. Recovery will be a difficult journey, but the earlier you begin it, the shorter of a distance you will have to walk and the less painful it will be.

Believe in yourself and whatever happens, whatever you do - keep going and be free.

Love,
Amaryllis

[Dake]

Only one word my friend "CARDIO" if you feel that your fat...

[Lovely637]

Maybe you're just to conscious with your body. I guess you better believe on what they say because they are the ones who're seeing you.

[venicemayer]

It's not healthy to look at yourself that way. I think you have a serious condition based on the action that you do every time you eat so probably you have an eating disorder that needs to be cure as early as now. If you always see yourself badly whenever you are infront of the mirror then most likely it will affect your day to day life. Seek help from an expert before its too late.

[that-god-chick]

thanks guys im going the doctors soon about depression so ill bring this up and see what they say