Mystique
July 29th, 2012, 02:51 PM
I've had an eating disorder for years. I can remember being 8 years old and starting to skip meals. I don't even remember whaat it's like to take a bite of food without Ana whining in protest, asking what she did to make me disobey her like that, complaining that she thought she was my friend - the only one who has never abandoned me when I needed them.
I've been at dangerously low weights and I've been healthy weights (when the doctors had me on formulas and meal plans and stuff).
Well, I went to the doctor last week and they weighed me and measured me and all that stuff and then she told me that I was doing really well and that I looked healthy. Well, my mind immediately interpreted that as "You look fat"
Ever since then I have been so bad with my eating. I get hungry but if I even look at food I want to vomit. I can't let myself eat and I know I'm getting close to the point where I will start passing out again. I'm so sick of being this way
I've been at dangerously low weights and I've been healthy weights (when the doctors had me on formulas and meal plans and stuff).
Well, I went to the doctor last week and they weighed me and measured me and all that stuff and then she told me that I was doing really well and that I looked healthy. Well, my mind immediately interpreted that as "You look fat"
Ever since then I have been so bad with my eating. I get hungry but if I even look at food I want to vomit. I can't let myself eat and I know I'm getting close to the point where I will start passing out again. I'm so sick of being this way