My older sister killed herself and it still hurts. Help me?

[Thecodfather]

I dunno..My older sister hung herself. I..Don't really know what to put here..

[xDarkAngelx]

Firstly I am so sorry to read of your loss and I can't imagine how difficult it is for you. Did this happen recently? If your still unsure on what to write just say how your feeling and just whatever is your mind. I'm here if you ever want or need someone to talk to.

[Thecodfather]

..I can't even remember how long ago it was..A few years a think, I've never really talked about it much though. I never really talked to her much actually cause later I found out she wasn't even related to me, but she felt like a sister. She was nice, really nice. I just..Miss her alot, I dunno maybe I'm just ranting cause I can't rant at her grave cause she was burned.

[CyanideGoodnight]

Ah... do you go through this yearly? Around the same time of year? And the closer the day it is to the day of her death... the worse it becomes???

If so, I know how that is. My friend died years ago but every year it comes flashing back. I found ranting helps MILLIONS... so don't be afraid to rant away to us. We're here to listen, and sorry for your loss

[Thecodfather]

..I feel alot better already o.o. I just don't want to go into too much detail cause I'll get depressed and get all..I dunno.

[CyanideGoodnight]

Then rant as much as nessasary, and go into as much detail as you feel comfortable. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better, though

[Thecodfather]

I'm kinda new to this so I don't really know what to do.. But yes I do feel better, just feeling shy. When I feel better I'll probably say more.