ED.

[Chaos_and_Disorder]

I know that are tons of girls and boys out there that are forming an ED or trying to break an ED.

I'm one of those girls trying to gain an ED.
I went through stages of being fat and then dropping down to being skinny. I would buy a pair of jeans and lose as much weight as I could before I could fit perfectly into the jeans or to the point where the jeans were too big on my body. I remained at a good weight due to doing cheer leading back in the day. I went away from cheer leading and regained all my weight. I was about 5"1 and weighed about 135. I felt horrible.

I break down and cry, like seriously cry when I look at myself in the mirror. People tell me all the time to focus on the good things about me and I find probably a few or none. I look at my body and scream because I hate it so much. I look at shit that triggers EDS like photos, videos, blogs or messages from people.

I look at food like it's a demon, a mistake. I feel extremely weak right after I eat or when I think about food. I feel sick after eating food, even when I don't eat a lot. I went a few days without food and it felt good. Also, the burning stomach feeling is amazing. My stomach seems to be so small, where food presses down on my stomach and causes pain.

I thought for the longest time I had BDD and come to find out I do. My finace tried to put me on this diet and I couldn't stand it. I wanted something that attacked my fat and got rid of it fast, pretty fast.

I want to become skinny. So skinny that my rib cage sticks out. Call it sick or whatever but it's my choice.

Someone PM me or help. :[

[Serenity]

You say you want help...but you also say you're choosing to lose so much weight your ribcage sticks out, so I'm thinking there's some part of you that definitely does NOT want this. Even if you can find very few things about your appearance that you like, think how much worse off you can be. And besides that, think how much more you have to be proud of besides how you look, which is a very minimal part of who you are. It's perfectly fine to want to have a great, skinny body. But why would you want to be so skinny you can see your bones? If you want to improve your appearance, that's not the way to do it. Overly skinny is as bad as obese- it doesn't look good and it's unhealthy. Food isn't a demon, it keeps you alive.

You need to realize that being skinny isn't anything. In fact, it means very little. It will mean a lot more if you learn to love yourself than it will for you to fit in a size 0.

[Crazysam]

Listen to Valerie she has wisdome :P
as for my advice i would say that i have seen anorexsic people before (i have 2 anorexsic friends and it is a mental illness trust me you dont want a mental illness! As val said obesity and overly skinny are as bad as each other! also when you stop eating horrible stuff happens like your periods will stop you will get rashes and will have no energy!

[Bobby]

It's not worth it, it's just not worth it to be that skinny. I don't know what you look like, or your weight, but I'm sure your healthy. That's what matters
Do you think people are going to treat you any differently if they can see every bone in your body? Yes, they will. But not in the way you want them to. They will think it's discusting most likely. But if you are a bit on the heavier side, go ahead and lose 5 or 10 pounds. But don't starve yourself, and don't go down that dangerous road.
You won't be happy when you can see everybone. Do you know why? You'll feel lightheaded most of the time, you'll have loss of breath, and you just won't have energy.

It's just not worth it to have an eating disorder, I'm sure you are fine just the way you are :)

[serial-thrilla]

you have a disease and you need professional help before you starve yourself to death.