need to leave

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

i need to leave, i need my knifes in my chest, i need to take my entire bag of pills, i need alcohol...

i want to leave so bad right now, i felt like i was recovering but im not, not after what happened last night. i cantleave because if i do i cant see the girl i love, see friends and family again, try to help my family if my dad hurts them.

I NEED TO LEAVE
IM TRAPPED BY LOVE AND HATE

I NEED HELP, idont know what to do