I hate that I can't give this up

[Evrythng_im_not]

No matter what I do, it seems I'll never be able to stop cutting... Like now... I can't stop the fact that I'm cutting right at this very moment. I hate this. It's not fair. All because of one girl who keeps fucking my life up



Lesley >.<

[Bobby]

Well, I don't know what is going on with this girl that is causing you to cut, but if possible, try and prevent it, and put an end to it.

Cutting is not only harming you, but also everyone that cares about you. It's just not healthy. I would suggest going to a conselor, or a phycologist. They will help you, they will make things better.

[Evrythng_im_not]

they made things worse.

[Bobby]

You have to realize, that they will make things work. You have to trust them, and think positivly. If you can't trust the old ones for sure, try and find a new one. I know you can work through it..

[Whisper]

Go to a hospital
you go they admit you
a few days later they let you go and you've had time to step out of the shitty life into a real shelter

I did that a few times...well I was dragged in tecnically
but it did help me allot
it gave me time however breif to get away from the cause
and that allowed me to gain some strength
so i could go bck
and keep fighting

[lilmandrewl]

I would suggest going to a conselor, or a phycologist. They will help you, they will make things better.

they made things worse.

i have a couple friends with the same opinion as you... what i keep explaining to them is that theres no way to be told to quit or to be forced to, your will is the most important step in quiting... a lot of people say cutting is addicting because a mental high, smoking is a physical high caused by chemicals meant for addiction, yet everyday someone is quiting smiking by replacing habits, decreasing the number of times they do it, smaller amounts, and the most popular asking for help. the only way asking for help can work is if you, yourself, want to quit.

[timofy18]

this is really sad i dont know why you guys do this but u need to get help and speak to an adult to help stop this cause this is so wrong it amazes me that you guys can do this to yourselves

[RaisingSand]

Awwww. :( Chin up, hang in there.

[RequiemForADeath]

No matter what I do, it seems I'll never be able to stop cutting... Like now... I can't stop the fact that I'm cutting right at this very moment. I hate this. It's not fair. All because of one girl who keeps fucking my life up



Lesley >.<

So, I'm guessing i should ignore half of this. The half that blames me as the cause seeing as how we're good now. But even when we weren't before you know that you can always call or text me when you want to cut whether we're fighting or not.

-bella

[northskater110]

find someething else to do. like i helped my friend by giving him a teddy bear and told him to cut that instead,. it actually works if u make it look like u

[Evrythng_im_not]

It's been months
And I did it again.
One huge one accross my side
Two on my wrist
My friend got to me before I could do anymore
Is it wrong that I hate him for it?

[RequiemForADeath]

hunny. if you talk to him in WI ask him what happened to my arm.. you should see it.. huge ass scar. ten stitches.

and no.. dont hate him for stopping you because you dont hate me or vic for ever stopping you.

-love you

[Evrythng_im_not]

I can't help but hate him.
I swore I'd die without her.
I'm not a liar.
I will die without her.
I just need to get him off my back.

[RequiemForADeath]

He's is sorta over-powering.. isnt he?

[Evrythng_im_not]

Very...
But thank you Lesley...
You promised
You'll hand my hand as I go down
Just like I'll hold yours
We'll go down together
It'll be morbid

[RequiemForADeath]

morbid love?

sweeeet

[XXxxI_solute_youxxXX]

umm tbh any advise ne1 gives u is gona be rubish

u gotta work out how 2 help urself

[Hauptmann Kauffman]

How do you know Its rubbish? Support from others is always a good thing, Everyone cant work these things out by themselves.

[XXxxI_solute_youxxXX]

I was really pissed off by every1s advise

so I found me own way

nd it worked a lot betta

[kovert43]

bobby right it hurting ppl around u . + the girl who fucking with u ingore her or dont pay attention to what she does find a new way to find relief . like for me im a nerd so games for me is my stress reliefer

[TakenAway--x]

I can honestly say that I have been through the cutting situation before. I had hundreds of scars lining my left arm. My friends would freak out about it, but at the time, I remember thinking nothing of it. No big deal, it's normal.

Though the thing is, it isn't normal. It isn't normal to inflict harm on yourself because you feel that you have something wrong. It is almost like punishing yourself.

If you've seen or read the Harry Potter series, you know that every time Dobby the house elf makes a mistake, or any of the elves at that, he beats himself up over it by bashing his head in the wall and tormenting himself about it. In a way, that is exactly what being a cutter is like, except with a razor and more blood splatter. You are tearing yourself apart over minor mistakes. We all make mistakes, and sometimes we hurt so bad over our mistakes that we can't seem to find a solution to make them go away, but as a recovered cutter, I can honestly say that cutting never took my pain away.

Staring at those scars, I had wished that I had never started cutting. That I could make the scars go away and be normal like everyone else. But I had become addicted. Cutting was an "escape", but at the same time, I never escaped anything with it. It never cured a damn thing in my life.

When my mom saw my scars, I told her that our dogs had created them, but she knew what was going on. As obvious as you don't think it is to other people, sometimes you are wrong. Once it gets bad and you have numerous razor slash marks lining your arms, it is at that point that people know. She ended up seeking help for me and taking me to a therapist of which I saw only a few times with no intention to stop the cutting.

But I remember sitting in the doctor's office one day and crying, asking mom why she was doing this to me. For her to seek help for me just hurt at the time. I told her, "I'll stop. I promise, I'm better. I promise. I won't ever do it again. You don't have to do this."

I wasn't better, though. If she hadn't made me realize the severity of my problem, I would probably still be doing the same thing that I was doing three years ago.

It was at fourteen that I was dubbed a clinical depressant. It was at fourteen that I began cutting. It began as an experiment to see how it felt. I wanted to know what it was like after the 17 year old guy I liked at the time showed me his scars and asked me if I ever did it. His were nicks, but mine grew and grew over time. It began as a minor problem and grew to something big.

If you really want to stop this, I'd suggest seeking help about it. Seek a doctor or someone that you can talk to and trust to help you with your situation. Once you realize the problem, it is easier to stop, but I can promise you that it won't be a smooth ride. When it's over, at times you are still tempted to pick up that razor to cut or even kill yourself, but in the long run, once those razors are gone and you've gradually stopped thinking about cutting, your scars will fade away and no longer will you be punishing yourself for every little thing that goes wrong in your life.

[oscaryu1]

No matter what I do, it seems I'll never be able to stop cutting... Like now... I can't stop the fact that I'm cutting right at this very moment. I hate this. It's not fair. All because of one girl who keeps fucking my life up



Lesley >.<

Drop that girl like an hot potato and walk like an MAN away. You're acting like an girl. Pure childish. Never can get over it can you? Think again. Trash those blades, burn them. Clear your mind. Reset it and wipe it clean. Start fresh. This is one chance. This is the same as trying to quit smokes. Stop it, and I guarantee you, screw up this second chance, you'll never make it.

[Evrythng_im_not]

okay... I act like a girl... BECAUSE I AM ONE!!!
And I don't "drop" anyone. That's just rude. Like you

[Kiros]

If you really want to stop this, I'd suggest seeking help about it. Seek a doctor or someone that you can talk to and trust to help you with your situation. Once you realize the problem, it is easier to stop, but I can promise you that it won't be a smooth ride. When it's over, at times you are still tempted to pick up that razor to cut or even kill yourself, but in the long run, once those razors are gone and you've gradually stopped thinking about cutting, your scars will fade away and no longer will you be punishing yourself for every little thing that goes wrong in your life.

Ditto.

And by the way, Sara... I'm glad that you woke up - really glad.

[Chaos_and_Disorder]

So, you're letting one girl ruin your life? Sounds like a teenager dealing with normal life.
But seriously, I can't be a hypocrite. You might feel like now you won't be able to give it up but someday you won't need it. Same with me. So, keep holding on.