I want it so bad.

[Noxail]

I want to cut so bad. I want to feel the blood slide down my arm. It's too fucking much. I feel like I'm going to explode. Ah and I stayed away for almost three weeks this time... ~Holli

[OrKing]

Please don't do it Holly, you can fight through this; you're stronger than those horrible fucking urges. Shit, If I can and have found the willpower to fight the urge to go downstairs and make myself a Tuna Salad Sarni Sandwich for the past hour than you can fight this, seriously, I have the willpower of a fish... Alright, that was, admittedly, a really, really shitty example, but I haven't been asleep in like 24 hours and I'm a dumb-ass in normal circumstances so please, try forgive me, lol. I pray you find the strength not to give in. I'm kind of really counting on people being able to fight through these urges at the moment. Please don't cut yourself; you can make it to three weeks, I know you can, please fight it.

[NightFighter]

Hey Holly,

I know this may sound strange but i want you to forget about those three weeks you've not self-harmed. I want you to forget because that's the only way you're going to forget about this addiction altogether. I mean, if you're counting the days then you're still remembering it and (as far as my experience has found) counting the days you feel is acceptable to do it again. I understand that counting the days you've not cut is a motivator to desist from it but ultimately you need to lose count in order to move on.

Therefore, I want you to not cut today.

Thats all.

Just today.

And you can do that.

I know you can.

So, i guess you're wondering 'how do i do that?'
Well, i know you've read all about techniques and strategies to prevent and distract yourself from self-harming. So, all i can recommend is what i found most influential: watching the blood pour down the drain and thinking 'i could save a life with the blood im wasting'. Its corny but its true. Healthcare in every country is screaming for blood donations and we're letting it flow down the drain. We could save our life and another person's by letting our blood be put to use and not swallowed down a sink.

You're stronger than the urge.

Believe in yourself

Take care

xxx