Can't believe he's gone...

[Nic0leee]

My dad had been battling cancer since I was in third grade...I'm currently a freshman in high school.. First he had a rare type of cancer in the form of a tumor on his hip bone. It was about the size of a grapefruit. He got it removed, and with some radiation, he was well again. Then, when I was in 7th grade, the cancer had returned, but this time it settled iin his right lung. He got it removed along with a part of his lung. Again, his life returned to normal. The December of my 8th grade year, my dad's cancer came back. This time there was a lot of it, and it was growing fast. He and my mom spent about three and a half months on the hospital while my brother and I had to live at our home by ourselves..finally my dad was released from the hospital, but his life at home was no walk in the park. He was taking pain and other medication every two to four hours, and had to constantly be on oxygen. He lived like this for about three months while having chemo treatments every three weeks. The doctors were not sure if chemo would work on this type of cancer..we could only hope. As it turned out the chemo wasn't working. About three weeks after he stopped chemo treatments, my dad was having trouble walking, holding himself up, and waking up from a long sleep. When he would wake up, he would think the dream was his reality...that was one of the scariest things I have ever seen. My dad passed away after about a week of struggling like that. He passed away Wednesday July 11, 2012.

I'm sorry i wrote so much...I just wanted to get my dad's story out into the world. He was the strongest man I will ever know. If the doctors told him he had a month, he would live for another three months. I'm glad he is out of his pain, but sometimes i truly miss my dad...the one that would make jokes, teach me how to fish, play with our dogs...I miss my happy dad.

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

Im so sorry, Nicole :( I know its very hard! Hes not in pain anymore, just trying to think of it that way. Im sure he was a great man. Just think of the good memories you shared with each other. Its going to be hard with out him i know, just be strong :) I know how it is loosing a parent, that was 13 years ago... and yeah still hurts today. Im not trying to make things sound bad! But just think about the good and all, if you ever want to talk about it just message me, ill gladly help you.

[Breakeven]

im really sorry about ur dad , he seems a wonderful strong father
if u ever need someone ,im here :hug:

[HelpfulGuy]

Nic0leee here is a quote that may help a little during this hard time:


Don't grieve for me for now I'm free,
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard him call,
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone will stay that way,
I found that peace at close of day.
If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy
A friendship shared, a laugh a kiss,
Ah yes, these things I, too, will miss.
But not burdened with times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life has been full, I've savored much.
Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all to brief
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief,
Lift up you hearts and share with me,
God wanted me now,
He set me free. ~Author Unknown

[Christheman]

He's in a better place now...

[StoppingTime]

I am very sorry to hear of your dad's passing, and I wish you and your family the best through these hard times. You can get through it.
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Never, never apologize for writing a lot here. That's why we're here. You should write. Get everything you want to say out, it really does help. Do this in whatever way you like. Cry a little. There's no shame in that. Don't keep everything bottled up; tell people how you are doing.
Even though he is gone from this world, he will never truly be gone from you, and your family. You still have all of the amazing memories of the times you had with him. Just hang in there. Spend time with your family. You will all help each other through this. It won't be easy, but I'm sure you can.
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We are always here, talk to anyone if you ever need to. :hug:

[Iron Man]

I am so sorry for your loss :'(
My dad and I don't have a perfect relationship, but I can't imagine what I would do if I lost him. Love you dad.

[dontfiguremeout]

Wow! I'm so sorry for the lost of your amazing father. Your story is sad, but also happy in a way. The happy part was your dad was not a quieter and kept fighting for his life, but now he can finally rest in peace up in Heaven! And one thing, he is waiting there for you when your time is up here on Earth! I know that because I always see my Aunt in a vision she is at the gates of Heaven waiting for me!

[West Coast Sheriff]

I am sorry for your loss.

[Stronger]

I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your dad; but don't apologize for writing a long message, write as much as you need, and let your emotions go, just remember your dad isn't suffering, I'm sure he knows you miss him and love him, and he will always be watching you, keep his memory alive, he's probably thanking you for it. Your post reminds me a lot about the last week I had, like the users above said, spend time with the family, laugh and joke about the good times, and moarn together when you are feeling sad. If you wanna talk, don't be shy to talk to me. :)

[Nic0leee]

Thank you all for your wonderful words...the poem really touched my heart :)

[Jesse17]

hey my friend, I really feel sorry for your lose, and you should not apology for writing too long here. Anyone may get down and want to share, to talk with other people, and hope to get better, so please dont apology for the long message. :)
i was quite emotional when i was reading your post, becuz i dont want to see anyone suffer from this kind of illness again, all i want to see is people living in peace and happiness.
if you want to talk, im always here for you, please try to get better :)

[WearAngels]

So tragic to think, yet, your like a brave girl to overcome and the acceptance of your loss of paternity affiliation. Well, there is nothing wrong to miss somebody who have passed away but you will see yourself sooner or later that being a optimistic and your dad will live only in your memory in time to surpass.