I'm wasting time here

[IcarusLives]

The only thing that keeps me from killing myself is a prescription to Prozac. I stopped taking it for a few days and I already feel like my old self for the most part, but not quite as bad thankfully.

When I'm on it I don't even feel good, I just don't feel bad anymore.

I still don't see a reason to live, but I also don't see a reason not to when I'm on it.

There's no point in living. Everything adds up on top of you, your parents have no faith in you and scream at you for everything you do and don't do alike.

Friends love you when it's going good. As soon as something comes up in your life it's like they've never even been there in the first place and they just don't care.

Tempted to just go out and get really drunk tomorrow. Anyone have any ideas.

I know this sounds like it makes no sense, and it probably doesn't. I'm extremely tired haven't gotten any good sleep and I'm beyond apathetic at this point. Maybe I just want some pity. Wouldn't be surprised at this point.

Does anyone have ANYTHING inspirational to say, or anything that could help somehow. Who knows. Fuck it anyway.

Edit: Oh and my girlfriend broke up with me for no reason whatsoever today, but claims that we're still in an open relationship. As to what that even means I have no idea. I'd rather have a yes or no answer as to what's even happening with us.

[libra210]

I'm on Prozac too. Kinda take it day by day but don't let it control your life, your life is better if you control it:)

[The Redlight Bandit]

Everything happens for a reason, whether it may seem good or bad in real time... You're only 18 and this isn't all that life has in store for you. You've got to do your absolute best to push on through the tough times, no matter how dark, because soon enough a better set of days is gonna be in store for you... I hope you can read this and take it in, but I'm always here to chat if you ever need to man, just hit me up...

[runnerz]

Life is hard and I'm very lonely sometimes. Sometimes it seems that the world is just passing me by.

But I want to live. I'll find important people in my life and protect them. One day, I'll find friends who will stand by me no matter what.

And I want to live so that one day I can be the sort of good influence in a child's life that I didn't have as a kid.

The saying is that when you live for others, you're most happiest. I only half accept that idea. You personally have to find a reason to live, to get back on your feet and say that your problems won't control you. And only then can you live for others.

But be hopeful, one day you'll find yourself surrounded by true friends if you keep on living your life as yourself.