skm32
July 14th, 2012, 03:39 PM
i have never spoken talked anyone about this ever ever, but here it comes
when i was 11 there was a dude next door that i used to stay with when my mom got aggressive, i would stay there for days on end if i needed to.
but that turned a bit when i was 12, i awoke to him playing with my junk.
at first i was scared, but the sensations were fantastic, so i would just pretend to be asleep things progressed, he would be blowin me and start to finger me as well which hurt , but it was better than being at home, so i let him do as he wanted. house rules changed too, when i went to his house , underwear only , which was a bit fun. he taught me to kiss, and what to do to please a person in bedhow to hold , how to be intimate. but i came home from school and he had moved, not a word to me just gone.
at times im angry bcuz he left me without a safe place, and also bcuz i apparently ment not a damn thing to him , nothing.
other times i miss him, i'm lonley and feel deserted and then there are times i feel just numb inside.
why does it have to be this way, anyone else go through shit like this?????
i want something more
when i was 11 there was a dude next door that i used to stay with when my mom got aggressive, i would stay there for days on end if i needed to.
but that turned a bit when i was 12, i awoke to him playing with my junk.
at first i was scared, but the sensations were fantastic, so i would just pretend to be asleep things progressed, he would be blowin me and start to finger me as well which hurt , but it was better than being at home, so i let him do as he wanted. house rules changed too, when i went to his house , underwear only , which was a bit fun. he taught me to kiss, and what to do to please a person in bedhow to hold , how to be intimate. but i came home from school and he had moved, not a word to me just gone.
at times im angry bcuz he left me without a safe place, and also bcuz i apparently ment not a damn thing to him , nothing.
other times i miss him, i'm lonley and feel deserted and then there are times i feel just numb inside.
why does it have to be this way, anyone else go through shit like this?????
i want something more