Lose Weight fat pig

[Nevermore]

I'm huge... I"m worthless.. I hate myself. I need to lose weight. I need to be under 80 lbs, why am I so far away? why am I a failure for eating.. I just don't know what the first step. i know my thoughts are unhealthy... I'm supposed to be 125 that's the least heathly weight for my height. Well let me tell you how I feel about that? SKREW THAT!! >.< I want to be thin!!!! skrew me. skrew everything about me... i hate this... irate my... i hate how I look who i am. i hate that i'm only 98 lbs. 15.6 is my bmi. i just want to feel pretty... one day.. just one freakin day. or to eat something amazing! like cake.. or cookies. Or something awful like mozzerla sticks. I haven't touched those in years... i'm a vegan, but I miss chowing down on french fries, and not caring, but I know i'll never get to my goal weight without caring... damn this disease....

[Darknova8]

Calm down... your beautiful and weight has nothing to do with beauty. You can weight 200 pounds but how you act defines you more.
Your beautiful in the eyes of any person who isn't obsest with looks.
I avoid those people because they don't understand life.
You aren't even overweight.

[Nevermore]

It's different with me then it is with other people. I can look at other people give the same advice. I know what your saying, but it's not that simple. I know looks don't matter. Part of the reason i'm anorexic is to not look appealing to the opposite sex due to multiple accounts of sexual abuse. It's also a self punishment thing, but I think the skeletal look is pretty, so it's the triple positive there.. I do understand life. I know I"m not overweight, but when I look in the mirror I see differently. Thanks for trying to help tho.

[Darknova8]

I understand but this isn't healthy.
It's not your fault you were sexually abused thus u have no need to punish yourself.
Promise me you'll try to get better and eat please.

If you ever need someone to talk to msg me ok :)

[Nevermore]

I know it's not.. I don't want to be healthy just thin...
I know, but it's more than that.. it's everything.. everyone hates me.. so I hate me.. they must have a reason..
I can't promise.. unless i'm threatened wit hospitalization.. that usually gets me to eat.. but i"m leaving outpatient soon :)
and thank you <3

[Darknova8]

Your welcome and remember theres always someone looking out for you.
If not a friend then me if not me then theres always faith.

[Nevermore]

Thanks hun <3

[haddin1]

I m agree with my friend you are quite beautiful.Anyhow try to avoid fast/unhealthy food which i don't think u usual do.Second do some physical work like swimming,running,jogging what ever u like.Because the combination of diet and exercise wakes you what ever you want.And don't hate yourself:)

[Aldis]

Hi all
There are may type of exercise for lose weight and body fitness and fresh vegetables and fresh juices are also good for lose weight like swimming,rope jumping,running,football,and ride cycle these exercise are good for health and lose weight specially.honey is also good for health and lose wieght.

[RedViper]

You are already beautiful :) You really don't need to lose any weight
If you ever need anyone to talk to, message me

[Fiction]

Sammy <3 I haven't talked to you in ages. (and in case you haven't realised, it's Fiction, I cahnged my name :P)

I can repeat what all the others have said, tell you you're beautiful and that you should eat. They'd both be true, but they're not going to help.

I'm going to tell you what's helped me get over my eating disorder. It's exactly what you said you can't do it. You have to not care. I know how hard that seems to too, but imagine it like a hill. You have to push yourself too the top, and it's really fucking hard. But once you get there, getting down the other side is easy, and it just happens.

You just have to wake up one day, realising the things that I know you already know. That any abuse you endured wasn't your fault, that you don't need punishing, that your weight doesn't define you, and that the only way to be happy is too give up on your eating disorder.

I'm not going to pretend that when you do this it goes away straight away. That's only the first hurdle, and i'm still not past the second either, but i'm going on the fact that the longer I can suppress the thoughts, and keep eating, the less vivid the thoughts will be. By continuing to starve yourself Sammy, you're reinforcing those thoughts, and you're just making yourself worse and worse.

Stay strong Sammy, you know where I am if you need me :)

[Silicate Wielder]

Look Weight dosn't affect how good you look, honestly anything below 100lbs is fine with most guys and girls. I wigh 120lbs and my mom tells me i look like I weigh 70. there are also limits you can go before your body starts trying to save as much of itself as it can by trying to stop growth, theres people who eat so little that they coul be 20 and litteraly look like their 5 years old. its not worth starving to be skinny.

[blackstreetboy]

You should value your health over anything. Look for the permanent harm anorexia will do to your body in the long run and do what you must to feel happy (w/o jeopardizing your health, obviously.)

[Syvelocin]

Don't know if you'll see this hun but you are absolutely gorgeous! And I KNOW that, you know. Every single picture I've seen of you is just beautiful as you are right now, and it breaks my heart that despite that you don't feel pretty, because you deserve to.

I know it's hard. I go into treatment every week surrounded by older women who truly value their health and have come to terms with that being more important than looks. I understand the importance of health, but do I really take it to heart? We're young, and health isn't something we think about. We don't have the complications, we haven't faced them first-hand enough to really grasp that living a long life is more critical than reaching those numbers. And you don't have to believe health is more important, not yet. I still don't. I've felt lost because right now, TRUE health isn't important to me. Sure, we've got our food rules that make us feel like it's healthy, but at the root of it, I don't want to be healthy, I want to be thin. It doesn't mean it's correct, but it's something I'll have to deal with in spite of my treatment until I can finally value health. But don't feel wrong for it, because most teens feel the same way anyway, ED or not. We're just blissfully unaware until reality rears its ugly head.

It's a difficult concept to grasp, but I found out the hard way that no matter how low the number on the scale gets, it won't change what happened. It will always be there, and you have to learn to cope in other ways as well. And it certainly didn't change the present for me, but that varies case to case. At the end of the day, you either have the ghosts of what happened, or the ghosts of what happened plus an unhealthy relationship with food and medical issues.

I don't know how you learn, but for me, it's just been waiting. Doing what I can now and trying to wait until the stars align. It doesn't work for everyone, but I have found that unless I'm ready to change, it just doesn't happen. Some people don't get how I just snapped my fingers and my self-harm went away. But when I'm ready, there is no going back. I always take my failures as signs that I need to prepare a little more before I'm really ready to take it on. And then try again when I feel the change stirring. You just may not be there yet. Or maybe not. But I hope you find something that works for you. A lot of it is just experience. I've done everything thrown at me to get better but I haven't seen any progress in any of them until six years later I found an amazing ED clinic. I don't know how your outpatient went (though I'd love to hear from you again about it) but I hope it wasn't too much of a negative experience. I just want the best for you, you mean a lot to me, and I hope you know that. :)

[TheGangstaSheep]

Don't listen to all that BMI crap, it's garbage! They don't take into account muscle-mass etc. Trust me, you do not look fat. I know that in times like this it can be hard to believe other people but you are seeing someone completely different than who everybody else is. Other people just see you as a normal girl with normal weight. But because of some trauma you may have had(Possibly bullying?) you feel that you are a terrible person. I know my words may mean little, if anything at all to you but please listen to me. You are not overweight.

[Jonathan1998]

Forget them, your weight is nothing it's your personality and milkshake that matters and so what if you're a little over who cares it's your choice plus keep to a healthy diet and people who call you say this: Screw you I maybe overweight but hey I am who and what I am and no-one can convince me to change so deal with it.