I hate myself

[bradsandman123]

I hate how i'm always angry i'm never happy thanks to westbrook high school all the bullying thayt happened now my life is crashing i have no friends im embarressed of my weight from emotionally eating and i have the worst depression ive ever had all i want to be is happy im so shy i cant make new friends nothing helps almost everyone around knows who i am in a bad way from all the lies and rumors that people spread i cant find a girlfriend all i want is to say i love you hug or kiss i want to belong in life and not be known as a loser like i am where i live i give up honestly i really dont care anymore all i want to do is throw stuff and cry my heart out the only people that care about me is some of my disfunctional family i hate how i am so smart but when i tried to accel in school the teachers would say i was wrong then ask someone else and they say the samethhing and there right it hurts i hate it now i graduated the pains still there im in pain from the stress of the night terrors and all all i want is to find the person who makes me happy and not want to worry there playing me im so angry i hate it . i need advice something to cheer me up please help i want to feel like i belong.

[turtleman]

:( this is a really sad story. I honestly wish I could help, but I have no idea. Try chatting with some of the mods; they have experience.

[bradsandman123]

from kindergarden to graduatiuon hasnt stopped yet

[HackerExecute]

Don't be embarrassed of your weight. Ever thought to yourself that there are others much worse? Because there is. Bullying man, I used to get bullied by the same 1 dude in 6th grade and 7th then again a bit in high school but I called him out to squash the bull shit and he never came to the fight. Sometimes you gotta stand up for yourself, even if you lose, you had the heart and courage to stand up to them. Or even something as good as confronting them, ignore it and walk away. That makes them look like a straight dumb ass.

Bullies are inexperienced street fighters. Which means they swing aimlessly and hope for the best, you'd be surprised who you could beat down in a fight. I know not 1 bully that is a boxer, MMA fighter, JKD fighter etc. Because when you train in the gym, you learn respect, discipline, everything a bully lacks. Join a gym where they teach fighting if you want and don't worry about your weight. I don't suppose you or anyone else who criticizes that aspect expects every homosapien to be thin? Obviously not.

About eating, eat all you want dude. It's food. If you don't like being overweight, try your best to work it off and exercise every day. It may be a bitch, but later you'll get used to it and work even harder to lose the pounds. But whether your fat or skinny, every woman is different. Some are physically attracted to hairy guys, bare guys, guys with abs, or guys with a gut. It may sound weird but it's true. What they are really attracted to is the way you treat them, if you're sweet, if you're romantic. I've seen a lot of women with big-boned guys and I would imagine because they have more respect for women than most men.

Lies and rumors are one of my pet peeves. And what I hate more than the rumor spreader themselves are the people who believe everything they hear. Obviously not people you should hang out with. I would think you are shy because of your weight? I used to be very shy around women and public, and I still am a bit in public but as I get older I get over it. The reason I was shy is because I live in a small town. Soon I will be moving to a big city where I know people are out in public every day. I'm sure you worry about what others will think or say. The same problem with me but I forgot all about it. I go out in public to do what I gotta do, get it done and don't even worry about others around me because when you look at it, none of them are worried about me.

Months ago I used to feel depressed and yeah, I used to cry on my own time about shit. Life does suck. I have to either adapt to it or kill myself at the right time. What I chose is to live another day and see how tomorrow goes and so on.

My advice is to start walking around carefree, lighthearted as if nothing is wrong or different about you. If you happen to get a job, talk to coworkers and be comical with them. Don't know if you know this guy Boogie on YouTube. He's a gamer, he plays Diablo, World of Warcraft and of course other games. He makes funny short videos and answers questions, and makes videos for people like you about depression and everything and will even respond to your messages.

Watch this video as soon as you read this. My other advice is to take Boogie's advice. He will DEFINITELY help you with what he says. Also, start becoming like him. He goes out and has fun worry free of the people around him.

Just watch, pay attention, take advice and good luck, my friend.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EDxsZ_mMsEk&feature=relmfu 7 minutes 30 seconds. *Urgent.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rlw7qPxaLw8&feature=BFa&list=SP205BF6B0310D16CF 9 minutes. *Urgent.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LwU34-B38Xs 5 minutes 30 seconds. *Urgent [Advice]

[WakaWaka]

Sad story. Try to do as many out of school activities as possible to make friends.