for once....

[Wintergirl_80.0]

for once i wish i could eat something with out a little voice in my head screaming at me
"how many calories are you eating?"
"how are you gonna work it off?"
ect. ect.

[StoppingTime]

You are stronger than that voice. Just by posting here, you've shown that you want to get better, and you will.
Eating disorders seem great at the time, but as I'm sure you've seen, they aren't all they were cracked up to be. You're fifteen, you don't need and ED controlling your life.
When you hear that, just think, "who cares? I don't need to worry about all this nonsense" because you don't need to, and you don't deserve to.
Have you told a therapist about this?

[Wintergirl_80.0]

once i did

[StoppingTime]

What was their reaction/advice?

[Wintergirl_80.0]

i dont remember

[StoppingTime]

Then, if you can, I'd bring it up again, seeing as it's causing you new problems. They aren't there to judge you, but to help. There's really no reason to feel embarrassed about it, and I'm sure that your therapist has it in the back of their mind anyway.
Do you feel comfortable with him/her?

[Wintergirl_80.0]

no not really i dont trust adults. plus i only started seeing her this year. and have only seen her a hand ful of times.

[StoppingTime]

That's fine then, these things can take time. Remember though, she is there to help you. If she sees that you aren't in any life-threatening danger, she won't tell anyone, and by law, she can't (patient confidentiality).
VIRGINIA: Virginia extends legal privilege to any duly licensed practitioner of any branch of the healing arts dealing with the patient in a professional capacity (Ch. 8.01-399). Mental health professionals may withhold records from patient if release would be injurious to patient's health

Here's the source (http://www.enotes.com/healthcare-reference/doctor-patient-confidentiality#select-state-disclosure-laws) if you'd like to read more.

Basically, it's saying that unless you are in danger of seriously, seriously injuring yourself, there is no reason not to trust her. It is hard to do this, I understand. But, I doubt she isn't suspecting it, so if you ask her something along the lines of, "I am worried I may slip into a serious eating problem, can you help?" The first thing she is going to do is not tell anyone, and try to help you.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

i guess

[Pedro Fernandes]

You shouldn't feel unconfortable about fatness, you can eat things like chocolate and sweets with MODERATION, not all the time. Go take a run to your local park, or street, listen to music while doing it. Its the best fitness advice i can give, u dont need those gyms, just a bi of moderation and a good fitness life. And remember: unneed to eat healthy things, like meat, salad etc. They have things that are necessary for a good life, because after all, all u want is a good life, and remember, its not the good looking that will make someone fall in love for you, its your PERSONALITY. All the other ones that care about those good looking boobs and etc are the jerks that wikl only use u for that, just be yourself. U dont need to make a life that u dont feel confortable. Thats the best advice i can give.

[Wintergirl_80.0]

thank you