Meh

[FullyAlive]

Don't really want replies or expect them just need to moan.

So everything like idk depression wise has been going okay for a while now its been really hard but i've been getting there and I was kind of proud, my counsellor said I'd really improved. But the past fortnight or so my mood has just been getting worse and worse I just find myself being really short with people or just flat out ignoring them, I can't be bothered to reply to them. I go out a lot but I just idk feel like if I stayed in and slept all day it'd have been just as beneficial to me. I just want to sleep all the time I get like 7 hours a night now, basically double what I used to have but I find its not enough and i'm constantly tired so much so I get headaches. I just feel out of control I don't like it.

My hatred of being touched has got worse, but eurgh why do people think its okay to just causally touch you. I don't like it it makes me feel really fucking uncomfortable. And all of a sudden my friends like to have deep personal chats, tell me they love me etc. I don't fucking do affection, I don't like to talk like that. And to be perfectly honest i'm in this mood where I don't feel loving them, I know I do, I just don't have access to that feeling.
I just want to be left alone to sleep and walk.

There isn't a point to this its just a small little phase of sadness that will no doubt be gone soon, its not a major problem and I have ways to deal with it but its just kind of annoying and yeah.

[Fiction]

Louise, we both know why this is happening. Maybe this isn't best said in public, but your post is here, so i'll say it here. You need to get him out of your life. I know that's easier said than done, and you know I know, i've done it. But it has to be done if you're going to make improvement. It means things getting worse before it gets better, yes, but i'm going to be here the whole time.

As for the touching thing, well, I think I know why that would be too, and you know I understand that.

Neither of us are coping as well as we wish we where, but we have each other, as we always did. Me and you best friend forever, and i'm crying as I write this. I love you Louise and seeing you go through what I went through hurts, but you won't be alone. I'll be seeing you again in a few weeks anyway. We'll be fine, and we'll live to old ladies and still be best friends and we'll be happy knitting together in our home (we'll go to the same one), love you, stay strong. We both know what you have to do, it's just doing it that's the really difficult thing.

[ImCoolBeans]

We don't know each other extremely well, Louise, but I'm going to reiterate what Kathy has said. You need to cut it loose with him - it will be much better for you down the line and I'm sure you'll see some improvement pretty quickly.

I know you don't really want some long reply since I don't really know much about you, so I'll keep this short. I don't want to see you going through any rough times, Louise. I'm not sure if I can really be of any help to you; but you know that if you ever need to talk about anything, whether you need to vent, you want advice, anything, I'm always more than willing and you know how to reach me basically at any time. You're a part of the family here, Lou, if you ever need anything don't hesitate.