Really depressed for too long

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[nobody091]

I know how you feel, I feel exactly the same. I changed school recently and didn't manage to make much close friends. I believe that there is lots of lovely people who are willing to speak with you including me. Regarding the family problems, I used to have lots of them too but over few years I created my own opinion and now I know that when someone blames you for something which is not your fault/you cant affect then there is no reason to bother yourself with it. You have to understand that people have view on things limited by the amount of information they have and are not always right - that applies to everyone including your parents and schoolmates. Remember that you don't know what is going to happens next and suicide is not a good option to solve any of your problems.
If you want to speak, I am always around :)

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[nobody091]

I guess you could start by making list of all the things about your life which you want to change. That way you can set yourself realistic targets and being able to see the progress always feels nice :-). You can progress from the easiest to the hardest or set yourself short term and long term targets, that's up to you :-). I wish you good luck ;-)

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[nobody091]

Dont think about it too much, there was many many people who went through the exactly the same before - for some of them it might have been easier for some of them harder. You always have to think about what is the worst thing which might happen, you will figure out that it wont be that bad to be depressed or stressed about it so much ;), does your mum know about your cutting already?

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