It's these kinda nights.

[Jupiter]

Where I feel like this again.

Where I know that no matter how much I crush on these certain celebraties, it makes me feel worse because I know that I'll never meet them, and that I'll never amount to anything.

I mean look at me, I've wasted 15 fucking years of my lame excuse of a life and I haven't managed to get anywhere. I am nothing. If I would have never been born, the world wouldn't be different at all. When I was little, I promised myself that I would be a change. That I could make something happen.

Sorry past Eric, enjoy your time while you can. Maybe try something different, maybe don't start hanging out with THOSE people.

i don't know. just... ugh.

[tmak621]

Man, I feel you man. I'm having one of those nights too. But there's always hope. Just gotta keep your head up. We're not born to be perfect and achieve everything that we want to do. It's takes time and effort.

You never know man, you might actually see one of those celebrities. You just don't know how though, but you will.

[Stryker125]

I often feel this way too. But you're still young, and it's never too late to make a change.

[OrKing]

Yeah, I feel this way every now and than too mate; and went through a few months of almost constantly feeling like it when I first left school. I left with very few decent GCSE's, drifted apart from about a dozen close friends and completely flunked even trying to get into college, for months I felt like my life was done, over, wasted. I felt like, after years of not giving two shits to what grades I got in school that me not trying had ruined and wasted my life. That's far from right though man; I don't know what makes you feel like you've wasted fifteen years of your life, but I can guarantee you're doing better than I ever was for the first 15 years of mine. Plus, the first fifteen years of you're life are nothing anyway mate; it's not like you've missed the opportunity to become a C.E.O or something. All it takes is a month or two of hard work and a stuck-by decision to completely turn you're life around; which is what I've hoped I've done by getting into college. Please man, try to look to your goals in the future instead of you're mistakes in the past, I had trouble with that for a while and it nearly tore me apart. Basically; you've got years to make any change you want in you're life bro, the idea that somebody's wasted their life at the age of fifteen is, quite frankly, fucking nuts. Aim to make any change you want mate, if you stick to it and fulfill you're set goal I can almost guarantee you'll be happier.

[Erasmus]

Hey Eric, stay strong. I know that you can beat this. You are not nothing, there are so many people that appreciate you. You mom, your dad, your brother, your sister. Maggie. Me. So many other people on this site. You're not a waste, you're an amazing person! You will become an amazing person later in life. You're a budding actor! You could become the next Asa! Come on dude, don't give up now!

[BrassMonkey]

Its not to late to change things. Just let the past be the past, and live your life to the max. If you want to change your life, then make a change. Just try hard, do your best, and you will get somewhere. By The Way, You are here for a Reason, so dont think thoughts like that. No one is perfect, and no one will ever be perfect. If you screw something up, then you are screwing things up just like everyone else screws things up. Everyone makes mistakes, and some people regret what they did in the past. Thats why I say just live your life to the max like it should be. Dont sit there and think sorry about yourself, go out there and make a Change in Your life and Our life. If you just keep your head up, work hard at things, and do your best, then you will get somewhere.