Angry!

[The Resurrected One]

Well, I've never told anyone here this before, and I think I should say it now:

There is this problem with me, and I get too angry too easily. Sometimes when people do the littlest things, I just get really angry. For example, when people keep continuosly blabbing on about something to me, I yell and start swearing at them. And sometimes when people tell me to do something, and I don't want to, then I sometimes sort of start raising my voice. But if they still continue, then I just yell. I've never used physical abuse before, but I yell. Is there something wrong with me? Wait, actually, I know there is. What should I do? This might be the reason nobody likes me. I really wanna be a good and nice person, but personally, I don't really think I am. :(

So this might be why I have all these social problems. But what could be causing it?

[Maverick]

Are you under a lot of stress? Like having a lot of things going on? Usually when I'm stressed and worrying about things, it causes me to get snappy and get pissed off easily. Also, hormones during your teen years make you feel more aggressive and moody. That can be a cause as well.

[The Resurrected One]

People say I wasn't like this, like, 3 years ago, so maybe that's it. And yeah, I have had troubles in school, so maybe that got to me. I'll say that I dropped out this year right after Easter break. I am going to a different school this coming September, though.

[Maverick]

Well what I recommend is to try and get things under control that are stressing you out and try to relax more - easier said than done I know. But from experience I know when I can either eliminate or control what's stressing me out, I usually end up a happier person.

[The Resurrected One]

Oh, and to add another IMPORTANT thing,

When I was little, my dad used to beat my mom, and her jaw has been severly injured, and it still is that way. The scary thing is, my dad is 70, and my mom is 36, so I was born when my mom was 22, and my dad was 56. So my mom left my dad when I was 5, but I still go to my dad's place for visits. That is where I am right now. He isn't really like this anymore, though he still seems pretty selfish and mean sometimes. So maybe THAT is what has finally gotten to me.

Besides that, however, I've been having a lot of stress lately.

Well what I recommend is to try and get things under control that are stressing you out and try to relax more - easier said than done I know. But from experience I know when I can either eliminate or control what's stressing me out, I usually end up a happier person.

I guess the thing is, I can't control my anger sometimes, and I can't deal with my stress. But I'll try to be able to do it, though. Maybe I'm like this because I just feel unloved by everyone.

[Maverick]

Well then you need to change your attitude and the way you think. Thinking negatively and thinking the worst will cause you to be stressed out. I used to feel unloved, unwanted, nobody likes me and all that, but what helps is talk yourself through that it's just your fears talking. Your mind can be your own worst enemy sometimes and you need to stop making assumptions that everyone doesn't love you. Think of the people that do love you. There has to be at least 1 person on this planet who does. Think of him/her/them and realize you're wrong and people do love you.

If you feel stressed, try exercising. Running, doing weights, walking, jogging if you don't already. What helps me is putting my iPod on and working out. It can relieve stress. Kinda makes you forget awhile your worries and reduces your anger a lot. Make sure you eat and sleep well. All that contributes to less stress.

Find things to do what you enjoy. Do things that can make you happy.

[The Resurrected One]

Going on the internet makes me happy, and chatting with people online sometimes makes me feel better. :)

Edit: Chatting with people who I know aren't pedophiles, that is.

[The Resurrected One]

Anyway, I should add some stuff about my dad. He is so...stupid, should I say, that he even won't let me laugh when I am around him, because he says only crazy people laugh. He also won't let me watch what I want on the TV because he says that 'it is stupid and uneducational'. He tells me that if I watch 'stupid' TV shows, then I will become stupid and I will not be successful in life. And another thing. There was this family from the Philippenes who I really like, and just because my dad doesn't like them, he stopped me from seeing them! I don't know why, but my dad has already taken one of the people in the Philippene family to court numerous times already. In the Philippene family, there was this very nice 80-year-old lady. But she died, SHE DIED, but my dad doesn't give a shit. He still takes the guy from the family to court just a day or two after that! My dad doesn't care about anyone but himself! It just makes me really mad. My dad says that the Philippene family are full of bad people, but in fact, they are the nicest people I have ever known! My dad is the bad one. I know he is. :mad:

So this is why I don't like living with either of my parents! Both of them just don't seem to care about their kids, and only about their own stuff (like...money!). Sometimes I just really want to run away (like right now), and go live with someone else. There is only one person I want to be with right now. I'm sure you all know who. :(