Relapsed

[Megson]

Yep. Things were going great until I weighed myself.

Then I wanted to die. But I didn't want to be rash, so I cut instead. And I was even nearing my 80th day clean, too.

Too bad I have to be so hideously obese...

[Desuetude]

80 days, that's amazing, whether you relapsed or not it's something to be very proud of. If weight and weighing yourself is a trigger then maybe think about getting rid of the scales? In my opinion it's not worth relapsing for. I know you might think you're obese but if you find a BMI chart, work it out, you're not really. You have to think about how you felt before, you felt a need to stop, you say things were going well so why can you not go back to thinking/feeling like that. What made you stop in the first place, you just need to get back in that mindset and I know it's hard but I believe you can, the 80 days proves you can.

[FullyAlive]

First of all 80 days is a real achievement, well done. :)

But relapsing is part of recovery its incredibly difficult to just stop and never slip back, its natural to relapse one might even argue its healthy. What isn't good is that reasoning, you aren't obese I promise you you're beautiful, you need to work to not let that number control you I know it feels like so much more than a number but its not, it doesn't mean anything.