i hate my life....

[fidder]

Hi everyone I'm new here and I just wanted to say some things I have in my mind, that's the reason I joined Vt...


For the past 4-5 years EVERYTHING has gone down hill for me... Parents having problems,lost family house and had to move in with my sister for a few months, can't concetrate on anything, I have no motivation to do anything with my life, mom dad and brother always have to deal with my crap and I don't want them to, haven't had a happy moment in 4 months which was when me and my ex who lives in another state got together until I of course messed it all up and I really regret it :( I wish I could go back and would have never broke up with her but we all know its not gonna happen but the thing is that she says that she still likes me and I think thats the reason I'm still alive because she means everything to me and I would never want to lose her because she's amazing she is beautiful,funny,fun to talk to, she has a amazing personality and lastly she tries to help me when i am feeling sad... I really care for her but what I did is killing me and just 5 days ago she got her phone taken away... I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore... I just want to leave already... Death is not a fear to me anymore... I welcome it I don't care if I die as long as everyone is happy without me ill be glad to die because no one cares for me so why cant I just die now? :( and please don't give me none of that "oh its gonna be fine just be strong" or "talk to someone about this" cuz thats all bs -.-

[tmak621]

Would it help if I told you that I've been in your shoes MULTIPLE times for the past 3 years? If so, listen. You only have one life. You are at a very young age and you have SOOO much to do with your life. No matter what you say, "that's bull because I feel like nothing and no one wants to deal with me." Buddy, I still go through it. I know how you feel. What makes me get through my days is my friends... not just friends, my closest friends. If you have really good friends, they are there for you. It may not seem like it but they are. In my situation, I KNOW my friends are there for me but they don't know what to do because I'm in a situation they have never been in. NO ONE wants to see someone leave really early in life.

My advice is to just take everything a step at a time. That's what I'm doing. I'm still struggling but hey, I'm still fighting to make things better for myself and everyone else.

[fidder]

You're right... i only have one life so I should make it count thanks man really helped me :)

[fidder]

I have no friends btw... Just her

[tmak621]

Just take it slow buddy. You can never rush anything that as precious as your own life. If you ever need any help, you can come to me. I'd be glad to help you out and stuff.

I said that before. I had no friends when really I had TONS of friends that were by my side. But my 3 closest friends were always there for me and would listen to me rant about whatever I had to rant about. Heck, I'll start you off with a friend. I'll be your friend. =D

[fidder]

Thanks good thing I joined Vt :D thanks again

[tmak621]

Anytime man. Like I said, if you ever need anything, I'm here for you and I'm pretty sure everyone else on VT will be to. :)

[rayraywa]

Everything that tmak621 said is completely true. I'm here if you need anything to talk to. I've had troubles with my life but now i'm over those problems and i would love to help you with anthing

[aanderso_n]

I feel bad for you man :( I felt like this many times before, maybe not as extreme so i can't say i know exactly how you feel, but i feel for you. Just remember that you never know what's right around the corner, so don't give up and just always know you have so many people here for you, including me :)

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