Problem?

[Gandalf]

I think I have a problem... I started scratching on my arm one evening about a week ago, very lightly with the blunt edge of a knife. I was really feeling depressed, it was after my ex girlfriend was ignorant about the fact I was crying out for help.

Then tonight I gazed across my room to a pair of scissors, :mad: just randomly sat on my table. It was like they were calling me. A couple of light cuts. Many scratches.

I just can't tell anybody how I feel. Everybody will think it's to do with the family upset that happened about a year and a half ago. It's not. It's my fucked up brain.
:( It's my corrupted, damaged personality and my crappy hormones. My failure to have perfect teeth, lack of strength and emotional distance to those around me.

Yes I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I don't want this to be a part of my life. I'm just to scared about opening up. Everybody looking down their noses and saying. "You should have said something" Well, I couldn't because I was scared you wouldn't take me seriously. Well done for overlooking me.

Happy smiles masking the twisted turmoil I feel within.

I don't know what to do. :confused:

[Bath]

If you explain to somebody you trust the issues you are going through, then nobody will assume it's about your family. Talking to somebody who is supportive and opening up to them relieves a LOT of stress, I've learned from experience. And I'm not a very open person.

Your brain is not fucked up. Everybody thinks and works differently. Sometimes those qualities are positive, sometimes negative, depending on how you perceive them. You saying you don't want to hurt yourself anymore shows that you are strong. It takes a lot for a person to say that, believe it or not.

Only open to somebody you trust so you're not so scared, that would be my best advice to you. If you explain how you feel, you will be looked upon more seriously. I cannot promise you everything will go smooth sailing, but most likely once you let somebody supportive know how you feel you can get some help, even if it's just having that person there for you.

[Gandalf]

If you explain to somebody you trust the issues you are going through, then nobody will assume it's about your family. Talking to somebody who is supportive and opening up to them relieves a LOT of stress, I've learned from experience. And I'm not a very open person.

Your brain is not fucked up. Everybody thinks and works differently. Sometimes those qualities are positive, sometimes negative, depending on how you perceive them. You saying you don't want to hurt yourself anymore shows that you are strong. It takes a lot for a person to say that, believe it or not.

Only open to somebody you trust so you're not so scared, that would be my best advice to you. If you explain how you feel, you will be looked upon more seriously. I cannot promise you everything will go smooth sailing, but most likely once you let somebody supportive know how you feel you can get some help, even if it's just having that person there for you.

To me my brain is f****** up, although after posting coincedentally a friend popped upto me on facebook and I opened up, yes I trust her. But what would I have done if this friend wasnt there? I would never of said anything, all my other friends (yes their good people) but sometimes it gets to the point where I just give up because I feel like they put a brick wall up between us. Maybe things will get better, I'm meeting uo with my friend tomorrow. I am so thankful we know eaach other. But I still feel like crap like now, but I'm going to have to put up wih it for a while.